Another wake up call from the beast just to remind me how painful the condition CH is, not that you can forget in a hurry. Its not good being woken in the early hours of the morning and have to suffer head pain so strong you think you are dying and then to be bloated at the same time and get pains in your back and muscles is a night mare. I don’t know what on earth is causing all these problems with my bowls and the doctors have tested me for all sorts of different things but still have no idea as to what is causing it and why i am so bad. I have now been put on some Movicol Drinks, another type of laxative to help me go to the toilet properly but its still not working .
I am getting pains in the right side of the stomach slightly higher than on the left side so i know its not my appendix that is causing it otherwise i would be in agony all the time and not just sharp stabbing pains every now and again like i am getting at the moment. The pain i keep getting is just on the bottom of my ribs slightly towards the underarm on my right so i think i still have wind trapped as it was doing this the other day and it turned out to be wind.
All these problems i have been getting with my health just lately is now starting to really get me down. I feel alone and with no one there to help me or help take care of me when i am at my lowest. When i was younger it was always my mother that came to the rescue when i was very ill and i remember being woken up to take my medication or to try eat some home made soup, and she used to make the best home made chicken soup you have ever tasted. Then i got married in Cyprus and it was my wife (Sofia) who came to help me all the time and nurse me back to health. Mind you it wasn’t until just before my divorce that i started to get ill and on a couple of occasions was rushed into hospital for some unknown infection leaving my wife to cope with the aftermath and my business.
Then my illnesses became worst as time went on and Sofia couldn’t cope with me and my mood swings so ended up separating and eventually divorcing me, leaving me to cope with all the illness alone. Again my mother came to the rescue, as much as she can as she herself is very ill, disabled and even suffering with Cancer. Still my mother tried to help out as much as she possibly could and managed to get me the help and the doctors that i needed. It has taken 10 years to get a proper diagnosis of one of the conditions i am suffering with, CH (Cluster headaches), and finally found a specialist who knows what they are talking about and put me in the right direction with the proper medication to treat the condition.
As soon as the CH started to become under control so did my Bi-polar disorder. being bi-polar and being used to the mood swings and behaviour i managed fine for many years with out any flare up’s but when the CH started to get bad and the attacks so strong my face would droop then the bi-polar disorder would play up something rotten. I would have extreme high periods where i would do silly things, go out partying and wasting money with no care in the world and then i would drop like a stone and become so depressed that i wanted to end my life. If it wasn’t for the help my mother has given and also the hospital where i was locked up for my own safety on a couple of occasions, i wouldn’t have been here today and i wouldn’t have been able to start up my fishing again so i have to be thankful for all of my mothers help.
Just lately i have been very bad and if it wasn’t for my mother and step-dad, Brian, helping to run me about to make my appointments i don’t know what i would have done. I wasn’t able to go on a bus as the vibration would cause me agonising pain yet i couldn’t call an ambulance out as it wasn’t life threatening so i was stuck in a predicament. The pain in my stomach had become so bad it felt like the insides of my stomach was red raw and wasn’t until after i got the medication from the doctor, Alverine Citrate, then the stomach started to calm down. Unfortunately although the stomach had calmed down the constipation returned and then again the other day it all started again so i had to rush back over the doctors again yesterday and ask for help. she has now given me these drinks to help clear me out and go to the loo but so far they haven’t helped.
Today i am not as bloated as yesterday but that is because the wind has calmed down and i haven’t eaten anything yet. i am just hoping the bowls will open sometime today and i will be back to normal soon. I am still getting a lot of pain in different areas including back and chest so i am hoping these will ease off soon as they always threaten to set of my CH and i end up having a massive attack. If my bowls don’t open in the next couple of days i will have to go back to the doctor and hope something can be done.
