Just when i think things are getting better and my attacks are at the lowest they have been in years i end up getting rushed into hospital with severe chest pains and threat of angina only to be cleared to find out it could be some kind of infection but i have to wait as the normal bloods didn't show up anything yet i am having symptoms of an infection. Cold sweats on and off all day soaking me, sore eyes , pains in the muscles, thrush at the back of the tongue showing the body is fighting something. The have sent bloods to the serious infections unit at the hospital of wales and i have to wait on results . I don't like the sound of that but they could be clear. The doctors say if they come back clear then i am to be referred for a colonoscopy to find out why the bowels are having so many problems and hopefully find out what's going on.
They also agreed that being type 2 bipolar doesn't help as i tend to suffer high anxiety which will make my symptoms feel and be twice as bad as normal so i have to be careful and watch my stress levels until they can find out what is happening. I am booked back in to see the neurologist on the 7th of December so its not long to wait and i am booked back in to the doctors on Thursday to see if there's anything they can do the relieve the symptoms. Being rushed in Saturday morning with the chest pains really shook me up and scared me. It just seems like i have had so much bad luck with medication its crazy. Reactions to so many different drugs is just not normal and i believe its down to the hiatus hernia. It seems ever since that started things have become slowly worst and my health is very low.
I am doing as much as i can to feel normal and live a normal life but when you are in pain all the time it becomes hard. I try to eat normally but struggle to have 2 meals a day as it keeps trapping as i swallow and almost chokes me and i end up having to massage my chest to help it pass through. When i wake in the mornings i can sometimes find a mouthful of acid greets me and end up running into the bathroom spitting before it makes me sick and have to use Gaviscon to ease it. Then there is the daily cluster attacks which are low thank god as i don't think i could cope with a full bout of attacks and feel this ill at the same time. I still have to deal with a few though and its hard. My body feels run down it needs a holiday. I usually go fishing now days to chill out but when you are in pain and the weather is cold it makes it 100 times worst and there is no way i could do it at the moment. maybe if the back pains would ease a little then i could go and that would do me the world of good.
I find when i am out fishing in the fresh air my body always feels stronger for it. Even though you work hard sometimes to catch those elusive carp, when you return home having captured a couple and released them back into the lake to fight another day, you feel revived and full of energy and that's one of the reasons i love fishing so much. Being on your own with your own thoughts out in the wilderness or at the side of a park lake is so different to being locked away on your own in your home. You have nature as a companion and feel so at ease its great. OK fishing can sometimes be a bit stressful when the fish aren't biting but that's the fun of the sport. Can’t wait for my next trip!
