Again i have been neglecting my blog web site not that i haven’t wanted to update what's going on but more to the fact that i just couldn’t sit at the computer due to pain shooting down the left of my back from the neck and the head as the beast is back with vengeance. I have been woken every morning for the last 2 weeks with attacks from the beast. After having such a long period of no attacks and thinking it was going back into remission i actually had forgotten just how bad and how painful these attacks can get at times.
The pain starts just at the top of the jaw and behind the eye and within seconds of waking up the pain becomes so strong you want to scream. your eye just waters and you can’t see out of it and all over the left side of the face feels like it is swollen and on fire. The pain then increases to a level that you start to believe you are going to die and even welcome death just for the pain to stop. It shoots over the top of the head on the left side leaving a swollen ridge and into the back of your neck and right down the spine.
No matter how many attacks you have each one is different in the level of pain you get, some times you can ride the attack out and although it can last over an hour you can put up with the pain but there are times where it becomes so strong you just don’t know how the human body can cope with all the agony and sharp pain constantly ripping into the left of your face and behind the eye. I am grateful for the injections i now have from the specialists as they are the only thing that can abort an attack but sometimes even these injections don;t work and all you can do is wait until the pain stops.
I am hoping it is just because we are now into winter and its the early morning cold that is kicking them off and that after a while i will get used to it and they will ease off again but i know how the beast can be sometimes and it is looking like i am in for a very painful winter. The cold seems to be one of the main triggers for my condition and all i can do for now is pray that it holds off or a while. Even now whilst typing the blog i can feel the shadow building and the threat of another attack lurking around the corner. God help me!
