Well its officially the end of my weeks long lazy recharge to try and get some life back into my body. I decided after my last visit to the hospital to try and take it easy and stop the stress from causing me attacks all the time and worrying about my health. I chose to stay off the computer not even updating my blog as i usually do and even visits to Facebook were restricted to my mobile phone as there was no computers allowed for the entire week. The idea was to eat sensibly and rest as much as possible so my back didn’t hurt all the time from the lump and cause me extra attacks as it hits the nerves in the back sending shooting pain up my neck into my head bringing on the beast. I also used to time to experiment with different foods to see the effect it would have on my hernia and the acid reflux that certain foods now cause. I found that sponge cake and bread bring on bad acid and that caffeine causes sever bloating and wind. It’s going to be a while until i learn all the different things that can set off the hernia i now have but in the mean time i will just have to be careful with what i eat and drink.
I have even tried relaxing in Radox hot bath’s to try and ease the nerve and the swelling i constantly have over the top of my head like a ridge. This is where the pain travels when i get a full attack and so far this last week it has been every morning, in the early hours. I don’t get as many attacks as i used to get and especially not as many during the day but i still get them regular with no particular pattern. I keep a diary of every attack i have just to see what causes them and if i can prevent them but nothing seems to show up and say “That is the cause”. I know the cold is one of my main triggers and stress also contributes to the amount of attacks i can get during a day./ If i stay calm i get one or 2 but when i stress i can get up to 5 in a day, this is still a lot lower than my 8 per day average when they turned chronic. I sometimes wonder how i have managed all this time, constant attacks and pain. It’s only when i think there are people a lot worst off than me in the world i start to think that i can beat this monster and stop it from dictating how i should live my life.
It’s almost fishing season once again and this year i am determined no to miss out on as much as i did last year. OK if i am very ill then its understandable that i won’t be able to fish on those days but i intend to get out as much as i physically am able to and get some fresh air this year and catch some monster size fish. When Korum competition in 2013 it was a chance for me to experience what only the professionals experience and those that can afford the sport. For me it was as though someone had given me a second chance to get some sort of life style back and despite my condition i could participate in a sport and hobby that i love so much especially when i first started fishing years ago when i was young, i will never forget my fist catch. Fingers crossed i will be able to add to those experiences this year and also get some new content for my fishing web site.
Again the social have decided to put me through another medical assessment.This time they are conducting it at my home so i don't have to worry about traveling down and having attacks while i am in the waiting room or reception area. I don't mind the travel its just when i have an attack around people it always seems worst and people start to panic when the see the state i get in. Its really embarrassing sometimes and i don’t like people seeing me suffer. This is one of the main reasons i tend to lock myself away in my flat and very rarely go anywhere now. This is the reason i love my fishing so much as it gives me the excuse to be out in the fresh air and if i do have an attack i can hide away in my bivvi or tent until the attack has passed. I just find it crazy that even though they have copies of my diagnosis from the specialist and my doctor they still find the need to double check up on me. It’s not like i can do anything even if i wanted to, no ones going to take on a person who has a stroke like attack every couple of hours or several times per day. I think the medical insurance would go through the roof.
