When ever i feel like i am making some progress and finally getting my condition under control something always happens and makes me feel worst than when i started. My luck regarding my health has been so bad over the last few years i am shocked that i am still alive and breathing. I have had several scares due to severe chest pains that the hospital thought i was having major heart problems, i have had allergic reactions not only to the medication the doctors are giving me but to thing that i have never had reactions to before all because of the hiatus hernia. My mobility has gone down hill fast with bad pains across the bottom of my back from a lump i have on the left side of the spine and then there is the sharp shooting pains up the left side of my back and in my neck all on the left side. This is probably due to a damaged nerve i have in the neck and it seems to be getting worst as time passes. All this on top of my actual CH and the attacks i get on a daily basis.
As appointments were dropping through the door and action was being taken i thought i was finally getting somewhere and started to feel a lot better not only physically but also mentally as i felt i was actually gaining some control over my condition. Then when things had started looking up the inevitable happened and once again something came along and started to make me ill again. This time i have been waking up early in the morning with my usual attacks but now i have found that i am waking up with a completely dead left arm and sometimes also my left leg. At first i thought it was just from sleep as after a few moments it starts to come back to life with the usual pins and needles. It didn't start worrying me until it began to start happening during the day when i was just sat watching TV. All of a sudden i would go to move and realise my left arm wasn't reacting to my thoughts or movements and i couldn't feel a thing. When i did move all it would do was flop around.
This has been going on for a while now and it keeps happening. I now have pain in the upper arms muscle as i think i have pulled or damaged the muscle from where it was flapping about and in panic i must have moved it a bit too much and hurt it. The feeling always comes back after a couple of minuets and i always get that pins and needles feeling as though the blood circulation has been cut off and then suddenly releases and the blood rushes back into the arm. I am sure i am trapping whether a nerve or the vein but i have this horrible feeling it is again linked to the damaged nerve in the neck that has been causing me sop much pain for such a long time. I have now been waiting well over a year and half to be seen about it and am no where closer to getting it sorted since it first started all that time ago. I just hope they will sort out an appointment soon as it really is starting to get to me. With all these things happening my stress levels are very high and i can tell this by the skin peeling on my arms and in my hair as i seem to get a stress rash when ever it is playing up or i am worrying too much.
Stress is also one of the main triggers for my CH along with cold weather so i have been having to deal with a lot more attacks just lately and this just drains all my energy leaving me feeling lethargic and sore all day long. The hernia is also causing havoc with the body as i keep getting repeating infections and problems when i eat and drink resulting in sharp stinging pain in the chest area. This along with the dead arm and back pain all the time is really taking its toll on me and i wonder sometimes how much more of this can i take. I try and stay strong and keep saying to myself i can fight this all the way and i will try and lead a normal life. I managed to get out fishing the other weekend and i felt so much better afterwards so we are trying again this coming weekend so i can get some fresh air doing something i love. I am hoping the beast will leave me alone for the weekend and i manage to catch some nice specimen fish. I( have appointments coming up in just over a weeks time with my neurologist and also for a CT scan and hopefully i will be able to get them to put the wheels in motion so to speak and get me some help as things just seem to be getting worst.
