The beast has decided to return with vengeance after giving me a break over the summer. I almost reached the full week pain free mark but missed it by one day. Now considering it used to be rare for me to see even one day with out a cluster attack I am really happy with the progress but saddened by the fact the attacks have returned in such a violent way. Since 2am this morning it has been attack after attack with me reaching a record of 6 in the morning. Now being able to abort the odd one or 2 with injections is fine but when you have to ride out the pain of the other attacks it really takes it out of you. I didn’t think I was going to be able cope this morning and had some really strange things happen that I can only put down to the nerve damage on the left side of the body.
I don’t care what anyone says , when you are experiencing strange things like electric shocks numbness, deadness and even icy cold feeling in different parts of your body for no reason , and you still know its the nerve, you STILL panic like crazy. They are horrible feelings when they come and can make life a living hell. Dropping cups of coffee because I cant feel my hand close around the cup properly. Falling over whilst trying to dress yourself in the morning as the feeling in your entire left side of the body just vanishes for a few seconds, enough to make you loose your balance. These are only a couple of the things happening and trust me when i say its an extremely scary experience.
I was reminded that there are still good people in the world and my faith in mankind has been restored when a friend that I met through fishing, the sport I love more than anything, decided he wanted to help get me back out on the bank fishing again and has offered to help me out and even come fishing with me. He didn’t want anything in return other than me to teach him a bit about carp fishing which is something I would do anyway. Its really nice to see there are others who actually think of others first and ask nothing in return for their kindness. I thought old school attitude was dying off but it looks like its still alive in a few people. Hopefully now it wont be long and I will be back gracing the fishing banks again catching a few monsters. I really wanted to target one for Christmas this year so fingers crossed I can get my act together in time.
