Thankfully i have had a break from the beast for the last few days but i am still getting problems from something that is giving me what i can only describe as an allergic reaction. My forearms and legs become red raw and feel like i have been rolling in nettles and also my face cheeks and forehead feels the same. I also get a sore mouth on the inside but not the throat. Its really strange what's going on and i can’t think what is causing it. I have tried everything from washing all my clothes and bedding out to make sure there is no soap or powder left in them just in case something was changes in the making of the washing powder that i have been using for over 10 years. I have also stuck to water only as a drink to make sure it wasn’t something i was taking like coffee, tea or orange juice. I have stuck to simple foods to ensure it wasn’t something like bread or milk causing an allergy. I just don;t know what else i can do.
It seems to be getting worst instead of getting better and my bowels were shut for ages. It was almost 8 days and i couldn’t open my bowels not even a little and then on Sunday i finally managed to open then several times. I won’t go into too much detail as it is disgusting but you can imagine after not being able to go for 8 days what came out and the smell was incredible. I have been using Movicol laxative drinks in order to get my bowels moving again with instructions from the doctor as to how many i should take. I started off with just 2 drinks per day but had to increase to 4 drinks within 6 hours and that seemed to shift the blockage so to speak. However i still find i am bloated and getting problems as when i woke this morning and tried to go to toilet i am again bunged up so it looks like i need to take more drinks until it starts to come out easily and loosely as the doctor instructed me. If they haven’t started going naturally by tomorrow i will have to book to go back to the doctor again.
Ever since my diagnosis and when i was put on the Pregabilin tablets it seems i have had nothing but problems with my bowels and my health has gone down hill rapidly. I blew up with hard wind and had small wind pockets or fluid pockets just under my breast on the lower chest and now this has increased in size and looks and feels strange. My stomach has also become swollen and is about 3 sizes larger than i normally am making it very uncomfortable all the time and makes me scared to even eat meals but i know i have to keep eating to keep up my strength. I am making sure i drink plenty of fluid so it helps to shift the bowels but nothing seems to be helping and no matter how hard i try i just can’t seem to get myself well again. I know i will never be as well as i used to be and that i will now suffer with the CH condition for the rest of my life but just when i thought i had the bi-polar under control all hell breaks loose and my mood drops fast.
I hate the depression you get with the bi-polar condition as you always panic over silly things and think the worst all the time. At least i am not having the highs like i used to and becoming uncontrollable and doing stupid things all the time so i have to be grateful it isn’t as bad as a few years back where i ended up in hospital as i was loosing my mind. With every thing that has been going on and all the trouble i have been having with my health i find it very hard to try and keep a positive attitude and not think of all the problems all the time. I used to write my blog every day but have noticed i have been letting it slip as i just don’t feel well in the mornings and end up sitting there wondering if i am going to live until my next birthday. This is a horrible way to think all the time and i really need to get help and snap out of all the doom and gloom. My mind is doing overtime and i really need to get back to my fishing as it gives me something else to concentrate on and focus my thoughts. I don’t know why but when i am fishing it is the only time i actually feel happy in myself.
