Yet again i have been woken in the early hours by an attack from the beast. The pain shooting from behind the eye, over the top of the head and into the neck making it feel like there is something trapped in my neck and causing it to grind with every movement. I had to take one of my injections as the pain was so bad my body burst into sweat drenching my clothes in an instant. Even though i had taken the injection i still had to ride the pain for about 10 to 15 minuets and believe me it feels like hours when you are in agony. The lump in my lower back, just to the left side of the spine, has been causing me real problems this last week and i have been in so much pain i just don’t know what to do. I am still waiting for the scan to find out what it is and what they can do to get rid of it as it keeps pressing on the nerves in my back causing me agony up the entire left side of my body and making me so uncomfortable its crazy. No matter how many pain killers i take it still causes pain and problems and because i can’t take strong pain killers all i can do is ride it out and use paracetamol to take the edge off the pain.
Due to all the medication i take and of course the pain killers i have been suffering from bad constipation and the last couple of weeks it has been worst than ever. If you are eating you breakfast whilst reading this blog i suggest you finish it before continuing… The constipation has been so bad i have been blowing up like a balloon and have been in agony as my sides have been really sore. Either i have a blockage or at least did have one as yesterday my bowels finally opened after straining for over an hour on the toilet and taking strong laxatives. Suddenly they opened with a pop and my bowels emptied and the relief i got was amazing but the smell was like nothing i have ever had before. A chemical type of smell worst than a sewer and it brought tears to my eyes in an instant. What ever was stuck inside me for days must have been festering and turning toxic as yesterday i actually felt as though i had been poisoned. My stomach is still bad and swollen and my side still hurt every now and again but at least my bowels are open and slowly emptying. I am hoping that i will start to feel better after a couple of days other wise i will have to go back to the doctors as i am feeling really bad at the moment.
Again my food and drink keeps trapping in my chest and making me feel as though i am about to choke. I have to massage my chest and push pressure on it to aid the food and liquid to pass through. When it does start to pass through i can hear a noise like air escaping through a crack and a wheezing sound as it finally pops through. Again i am still waiting for a procedure at the hospital known as an endoscopy, where they pass a tube down you throat into the stomach to see what is going on and why i am getting stuff trapped all the time. It’s crazy the amount of time i have had to wait and its almost over 6 months since i was first referred for the procedure. I know the hospitals are stretched and understaffed and with the summer holidays i can imagine they are busier than ever before but its starting to become a joke the amount of time it is taking for me to get seen and everything is starting to get worst. Lets hope i hear some thing soon before it gets too bad and i end up rushed into hospital by ambulance. Sometimes i think that is the only way i will end up getting seen and treated but i really don’t want it to get that bad.
Whilst suffering at home and missing out on my fishing this season i have been trying to keep myself busy by improving my web sites. As i have only managed a couple of trips this year and am waiting to go out sometime at the start of this month, September, i have been taking stories from the other members of the club and writing them up so that there is still something for my readers to follow. I have also taking the site a step further by introducing a monthly news letter that will keep people up to date with the latest adventures and competitions and what we have planned for the future. I have also decided to start my own digital magazine and have finished the first one and am already laying out the Christmas issue ready for Decembers release. I have really got into the design side of it al and laying out the mag, not only does it keep me busy but it also gives me something to look forward to. It also helps to keep my mind off my condition instead of dwelling on it all the time and feeling sorry for my self. At least i am doing something positive that people will benefit from. You never know it could be a massive hit. I have decided that the magazine will remain free for everyone just like the fishing club i have started and officially open in June 2015. I have a lot of things to look forwards to and just wish my health would start to improve a little so i can just get on with things and get back out on the bank and catch me some fish. Lets hope its will start to improve soon.
