The last couple of weeks has been hell on earth. I thought suffering from the cluster attacks was bad enough but for some reason i am also getting what i can only describe as a severe allergic reaction to something that i can’t work out. Sore eyes, nettle rash on the skin, hot sweats and really bad pain in the neck on either side are the symptoms of something that is really screwing up my body. My bowels don’t work anymore with out the use of a lot of laxatives and even when i try and urinate it takes a lot of strain to empty my bladder. This just isn’t right. I have stopped dairy products and even wheat just in case it was something i was eating. I have also stopped coffee and tea and only drink water in case it was something i was drinking. Some days i feel as though i am starting to get better then all of a sudden i start to feel worst for no reason.
The pain in the neck is also setting off my cluster attacks so i am not only dealing with the effects of the allergy but also having to deal with the attacks themselves. I have never been in so much pain and discomfort all at the same time. I have tried everything i can think of that could be causing all this but nothing seems to stand out. I have even changed my washing powder in case it was that and am boil washing my bedding in case it is bed mites or something like that that could be causing the problems. I just don't know what else i can do. I am taking antihistamines to combat the symptoms but it only takes the edge off and i still end up suffering the entire day. I am also taking a lot of laxatives at the moment to keep my bowels moving so i don’t clog up again and end up in even more pain and agony. I even thought it was the laxatives themselves that i am having an allergic reaction to but even though i stopped for a couple of days it didn't make any difference.
All i can do is keep on persisting and hope that i find out the cause of it all soon. Every day i wake up it feels like its getting worst and my neck is becoming more and more painful to the point where i can’t even look over my shoulders now. Each time i go and see a doctor they just say they don't know what is causing it and give me more tablets but it doesn’t help. I feel as if i am being pushed aside and they don’t care what happens to me as i am ill anyway. I will see if things improve today but if they don't i will have to make another appointment and see the doctor again tomorrow and try and demand they do something about this but i know they will do exactly the same thing as before and tell me to wait for tests and give me more tablets to make me feel even worst. All it would take is an allergy test to see what is causing it and i don't understand why they don't do that as they used to do it when i was a child. Maybe they don’t do those tests anymore, i just don't know.
I really don’t know how much more of this i can take/ Not only do i feel really ill but it is causing my depression to drop really low and i find myself in tears most of the day for no reason feeling sorry for myself all the time. I seem to be getting more aches and pains all over my back and sides worst than i have ever had but no one seems to want to help me and now i feel lost with no where to turn. Its really hard to try and keep a positive mind at the moment and i am trying to keep busy and keep my mind on thins that i enjoy but i can’t even get out and go fishing at the moment as i am just to ill and in too much pain. Please God Help Me!
