I wasn't woken by the beast but by nightmares instead. The sweat was pouring off me when i woke up from my nightmare. My temperature had shot through the roof and i was very weak at the same time. The pain in my back had spread across both sides and not just on the right side like it was when it first started so that means the infection is spreading and getting worst. I keep on hallucinating and hearing things witch tells me my temperature must be at a dangerous level. The last time i was this bad i ended up in hospital for 3 weeks whilst i was living in Cyprus.
I don’t know why i have ended up like this or what has caused such a nasty infection to appear. All i do know is i need lots of rest and need to keep warm as i am having hot and cold flushes all the time and the last thing i want to happen is to make my condition worst than it already is. Why i get so many nightmares when i am ill i don’t know but i have always suffered with them for as long as i can remember. When ever i end up running a fever i always end up having bad dreams. Its crazy as i have the heating up full, the electric fire on full blast, i also have the quilt wrapped around me and i am fully dressed all this just to stay warm as even though the sweat is pouring off me i feel as if i am freezing cold.
At least my head is behaving itself today witch is one thing i can be grateful off. I don’t think i would be able to cope with having a bad head day at the same time as i am feeling so ill, run down and weak. Its crazy as i have been complaining about this feeling i had in my back for several weeks and the doctors as well as family all snubbed me when i said i think i had a problem starting and they all seemed to think i had pulled a muscle in my back. Now that the infection has shown its face i will be able to deal with it and hopefully get it under control with the help of antibiotics.
The one thing i can say about being ill is i hate feeling sick all the time. I am grateful i haven’t been as sick as i have in the past but every time i try and stand up or walk to the bathroom everything starts to spin and i begin to feel extremely sick and queasy. Everything sounds like it is muffled and even the TV sounds like the volume has been turned down but i think that is just my ears are blocked. I don’t have a blocked or runny nose and any other signs of a cold so as to what is actually causing it i haven’t a clue. All i know is i want to go straight back to bed.
