It wasn’t until i was reading back over my blog yesterday that i realised we still didn’t find out exactly what started my stomach and bowls off and how i have ended up with bad IBS. I can agree with the doctors about the medication and too many painkillers can cause constipation but when you don’t actually take that many pain killers it doesn’t make sense. I was so constipated that when straining just to go to the toilet i ended up giving myself a hernia. Every day i have to contend with my bowls and wind all the time and the pains you get when you have wind trapped inside the body moving around your organs. All this for no reason apart from possible medication
Then you are told to take even more medication just to ease these symptoms and you start to get side effects from those medications also. Its just like one giant circle of battling the different medications in order just to feel well. The only thing i can think of that started off the IBS is the injections i have been taking for my head or the actual Pregabilin medication that i rely on the keep the beast at bay. Now that i have the condition and have to rely on the tablets to calm it down it is finally coming under control and i am able to move about a lot more than i could when it was playing up. Stress also plays a huge part with the IBS and makes it play up even worst. So the more pain you get the more you worry and the more it hurts and so on.
I am just thankful that i have been feeling a lot better than i was a few weeks ago. I still have a feeling of pressure on the back on the right hand side and i am still passing wind like there is no tomorrow but at least the pain is now under control. My head attacks have reduced in the number i get in a weekly period so that has also made me feel a lot happier and now that i have my new teeth from the dentist and it takes years of the face i have been feeling a lot happier in myself. I am still restricted in where i go and how far i travel as having an attack away from home still scares me and the pain i get when i walk is still there so i have to take it easy.
I have reserved my Bivi this morning and will go down the shop to buy it tomorrow so that's the last piece of fishing equipment i need and i am ready for my birthday fishing trip. My brother has agreed to come with me and we are going to fish my local lake so its not far from my flat and my mothers in case of any emergencies. I really love going fishing as for some reason it just seems to calm me and although sometimes you have to work hard in order to catch your fish i always seem to feel relaxed and don’t worry about my attacks. If i do get one i can always dive inside my bivi, take my injection and then finish fishing when the pain has gone. The fishing web site that i have created also helps me keep my mind off my illness and on something positive. All this helps me cope with what is going on with my health at the moment.
I am still awaiting a couple of referrals, one for my back problem and the serious pain specialist and also one for the hernia. I really hope there is something they can do about the hernia as it constantly causes me pain in the side and the back where it is pulling on the muscles with the swelling. The swelling on my groin is still quite large so there is still a lot of liquid there and makes me sit funny and uncomfortable. Even when i am sleeping i constantly aggravate it and end up waking myself up all the time. At least the weather is nice and the beast is still asleep at the moment.
