What a start to a birthday! Woken up at 3am by the beast yet again and then when i was getting ready to go out to visit family a letter drops through the door from the Job centre in Cardiff. The letter was asking me to attend a back to work and work focus interview on the 12th June at 14.45. Hang about it’s the 13th today?
Well you can imagine i panicked and instantly thought they had stopped my money and now i will have to go through hell again sorting it out and explaining my illness again! I rang the centre and was put though to an adviser who informed me she had a niece that also suffers with CH and is going through hell as her doctor doesn't believe the condition exists. Instantly i gave her the name and number of my specialist to contact, the poor girl. Anyway, she went through my details and informed me it was a clerical error and not to worry about it.
They also informed me that i would be able to do the interview over the phone instead of having to travel down to the centre. I am so grateful as there is now way i could jump on a bus and travel down town with my head playing up as it is today. I know the advisor said not to worry but when you suffer from bi-polar or any depressive illness for that matter, you worry over the silliest of things and something small becomes a mountain and seems impossible to sort out. I am just grateful she knew and understood what i was talking about and put me at ease. I don’t know what i would have done if it had gone the other way and they demanded i attend the office.
At the moment it is raining outside and the skies are grey so it looks like this weather is set to last a while. The trouble is it has also brought the beast with it as i am getting some very strong shadows today, my head feels very heavy and the neck is sore. I know i am in for a few attacks today. I am just hoping they aren’t too strong. It looks like i am going to be stuck indoors all day now as i have to wait for the supervisor to ring me and do the interview over the telephone and also as my head is playing up so i will end up shutting myself away and staying close to my oxygen tank. What a birthday, oh well if i don’t laugh i will cry so chin up and crack on with it.
