Again i have been woken by an attack from the beast starting my day in agony and pain. Sometimes i wonder what is the point in having an alarm clock when i end up waking up 4 or 5 hours before the alarm is even due. Every time i get woken by the beast a little more of my energy is drained away. I am only managing a couple of hours sleep per night not only due to the attacks but it is also down to the pain in the back that i am getting because of the small lump i have on the lower left of my spine. I am sure the lump is pressing on one or more of the main nerves that goes up the spine into the neck as that is always where the sharp shooting pain seems to go and also effects the rest of the left side of my body. I am getting sharp cramps in my left leg and left arm as well as the skin on the left side of the body feeling like it has been scolded or burnt as it makes it sting like nothing i have ever felt before.
You could say i am used to strong pain due to all the attacks i have had to put up with over the years and can honestly say i know what bad pain feels like and the pain i get in the back is very bad as it is at the same level as my attacks and that is why i believe it is a nerve that is being effected. I could be wrong and it could be something else that is causing it all but it seems strange that when the lower back hurts around the lump the other pains start. At least i only have a week left to wait until i can get to see my own GP and see what she says about the lump. I am still awaiting for the scan that she has referred me for and also the endoscopy the specialist referred me for when i told him about the food and liquid trapping when i try and eat or drink. It will be interesting to see if i am right about the food trapping and the wind and bloating it keeps causing not to mention the indigestion and uncomfortable feeling all the time.
I do feel a little better than i have over the previous weeks and i don’t feel as though i am going to die like i did at the start of the month. Why, when i walked and tried to do anything around the flat, my energy was draining away and making me feel as though i was going to collapse i still have no idea but at least i don’t feel as bad as i did before. I am not getting as many chest pains on the left side and my breathing has been fine. I am bringing up some nasty flem every now and again and when i spit it out into the sink or toilet you can see bits of black and dark green so i am assuming this is down to my smoking so i need to cut down. It is possible i had what is called a silent chest infection as i didn't have any cough or breathing problems yet i am bringing up some nasty stuff off my chest.
I used to smoke cannabis to help with the shadows i used to get due to the CH and have been a smoker for many years. I have now had to give up completely as when i try and smoke anything i end up becoming very ill and the pains increase so it’s just not worth it. I suppose that's one way to give up. I would never have imagined myself in this situation years ago but now i am a CH sufferer and have other health issues on top i have had to make some drastic changes to my lifestyle and i am just praying that the bad luck i have with my health will come to an end and i won’t have any more surprises around the corner.
