Yet again i have been neglecting my daily blog due top health issues. It has just been too painful to sit at the computer and type up my notes due to a lump that is in mu back causing me agonising pain right up the left side of my back into my neck. This in turn has been setting off head attacks and i have been in a right state. I managed to get to the doctors yesterday and explained to 2 different things i had that was making me feel very unwell. The first being the back and lump and the second thing is when i try and eat or drink it gets trapped on the way down almost chocking me and then pops as it goes through. This then causes me either instant indigestion or chest pains and my energy is draining so fast i can’t even walk to a shop that is only 2 minuets away from my flat.
After seeing the doctor and getting some tramadol pain killers for the back she decided to send me to hospital just to have the chest pain checked to make sure it isn’t the heart. I am happy to report that it isn't the heart as they say my heart is fine. I explained every thing that is going on and they decided to x-ray my back as well. Then a doctor came around with a specialist felt my back and because the pain is not on the spine it is to the left of the spine he said its not your bones and you don’t need to be in hospital so go home and take the pain killers you have been subscribed. Your heart is fine so we will write a letter to your doctor and off you go.
You could say i am a little more than upset at the moment as i feel no body want to help me and i am really suffering badly. I can’t even get to the shop and do general shopping, not that i can eat much any way, and feel i have been left to rot in my flat. The cheek of the hospital to say there isn’t anything wrong when there is a definite lump in the back and its touching the nerves causing me agonising pain. All because they only have a certain amount of beds and would rather treat people as out patients than be there in the hospital. Even if i wanted to complain i just don’t know how to go about it or even who to speak to. I am so upset i have tears streaming down my face whilst i am actually typing my blog in pain.
The back also sets off my cluster attacks and is aggravating my condition. The constant indigestion is doing me in and making me feel constantly ill and uncomfortable i just don’t know what to do about it and how i can make myself well again. All i can do is sit in agony and pray that someone will take notice of what is going on and offer me some help but i doubt that is going to happen. I haven’t felt this low in years. My depression has started to take over and i am getting uncontrollable thoughts again so it is really stressing me and worrying me. God Please help me……..
