So much for a nice lay in this morning as i was woken by 2am not by an attack but by my body deciding to play silly beggars with me and cause me agonising pain in the back. I couldn’t work out why it was doing it. At first i thought it was a bad dream and i couldn’t get comfortable no matter what position i lay in but then i realised i wasn’t dreaming at all and that the pain i was getting was real. It took me a while for it to sink in but i suddenly realised i had forgotten to take my Pregabilin since Saturday. I had gone the whole of Sunday with out taking any medication and now the body was telling me i had forgotten and decided to go into withdrawals. I only realised what it was due to me having to go through withdrawals from other drugs and medication before and i recognized the symptoms otherwise i wouldn’t have had a clue what to do.
After taking my medication it took a couple of hours for the medication to start working and the back began to ease away and the muscles in the back of the legs started to relax again. Thankfully the pain was gone. It is strange how the body behaves especially when you have been taking medication for a long period of time and the body gets so used to it. As soon as you take that medication away the body soon lets you know what you are missing. It’s only due to the fact that i believe the medication is working that i am still taking it otherwise after this mornings little exercise i would stop it straight away. When your body starts to behave like that due to an addiction of some sorts you know it is time to ease of and stop taking so much, but in my case i have to continue taking it otherwise the attacks may come back just as bad as they were when they first started.
I have managed a couple of days pain free so far and to be honest i was expecting Sunday to be very painful after a cold day sat by the waters edge on Saturday fishing. I normally expect to pay for my day out with a full day of not being able to move as it keeps setting off my head and causing me massive attacks but this time it didn’t work out that way. I am so grateful as this could be a good sign that the attacks may be slowly coming under control. I hope so as i could do with a few more pain free periods like this, just to get me out and about again and stop locking myself away all the time in the flat. I did enjoy myself Saturday even though i didn’t catch myself a massive Carp.
Its strange as the swelling on my scar on the left side of the head is back up again but there is no soreness like normal. It could be the change in weather again is about to cause me some attacks so i have to make sure i keep warm and avoid anything that may set them off again. I am at the hospital this morning, why i don’t know, as they have had the results of my head scan and found it to be clear. Its like there is now way of fixing this problem and i will have to put up with the attacks for the rest of my life. I wouldn't mind so much if i had pain relief to go with the injections but nothing seems to work. Each time i get an attack it feels worst then the last (if at all possible). My back has been getting a lot worst over time and i am now finding it difficult in just walking let alone sitting. No matter what i try i can’t seem to get comfortable so i am going to have to ask the specialist what is causing it to be so bad.
There are so many questions i want to ask but don’t know where to begin. It seems as if my condition is getting worst over time but when i tell the doctors it’s as if they just stop listening and don’t seem to do anything about it. The specialist is the first person to actually do something about my attacks and not just fob me off saying it must be migraines or headaches that is causing it. How can a human body be in so much pain all the time, surely they wouldn’t let an animal suffer the way i suffer, they would put it to sleep.
