Yesterday was funny day as i kept on getting ghost attacks! What i mean by this is i keep getting the feeling of pressure and a few sharp pains like the attack is about to start and then suddenly it disappears. Its a strange feeling and to get them so many times in a day is really strange. I know we had a low pressure front above us as i was watching the weather closely as when i get these low fronts i always end up getting attacks. I am starting to wonder if the medication is trying to work at last. Maybe when the attack starts to build the medication takes over and stops it. its the only thing i can think of that would explain what has been going on. i am praying i am right!
Again woken this morning in the early hours but again not by an attack but just the shadow feeling. It was very strong again this morning and again i felt an attack building only to disappear just as fast as it started. Don’t get me wrong i am so grateful it is doing this as i don’t have to go through the agonising pain. I think it may only be temporary and my attacks will return as it could just be the end of one cycle and the start of another. its crazy how this condition behaves. Sometimes you think the attacks will never stop as they just keep on coming one more painful than the last, if that is at all possible. then you get times where you think they have gone for good but only to return a couple of days later and remind you exactly how painful they are. i hope this is a start of a pain free period, we will have to wait and see how the day progresses.
Well it’s the start of the second month, February, i can’t believe how fast time has flown by already. Only 10 days till my appointment with the specialist and to get some answers i have been looking for, for many years, and finally be able to understand what has been happening to me over these years. I have been through some hard times and wonder how i managed to survive, to be honest. It feels like i am about to close a book and start a new one, if you get me. To be able to finally understand what has been going on and then to be able to plan for the future. For so many years i didn’t know whether i would be alive from one week to the next. Thinking the worst all the time and actually believing that my condition will eventually kill me.
On a different note, my mother has now got an appointment with the neurology department to have an MRI scan as well. They have finally decided to do something about the trapped nerve she has and the numbness in her left hand. I am sure what ever causes my condition runs in the family. It is strange how my mother has now got to have treatment for a trapped or damaged nerve, my brother has been treated and diagnosed with a problem with the nerve and it keeps trapping in his neck and causing him to pass out. He now has to take medication permanently just like myself. There's me being treated for CH and also the possibility of a damaged nerve on the left side of my head. It just seems very strange that we are all getting treatments for problems with the nerves in the spine, neck and head. This is also something i should pull up when i speak with my specialist. Maybe there is a connection.
