Yes you have guessed it ! ANOTHER early morning wake up call from the beast. ARRRGGGHH! I could scream sometimes. I am so fed up with being woken up early hours of the morning and not being able to go back to sleep. It wouldn’t be so bad if i could get some more sleep and rest but as soon as you have had an attack you are wide awake and constantly getting shooting pains so even if you are feeling tired and drained you still can’t fall back to sleep. No matter what position you sit or lay in you keep getting aches and pains so constantly feel uncomfortable.
I had a great days fishing yesterday and not a sign of pain in the head. The back played up a bit but that was only due to it being cold and damp. the weather had forecast Fog in the morning and then sun in the afternoon. It took so long to burn the fog off it was almost over when the skies turned blue and the sun decided to show its face. By the time it became clear the say was almost over.
Despite the weather conditions i still enjoyed myself and relaxed. It strange how i suddenly relax and think of nothing except the nature around me and the fishing. Trying to work out where and how the fish are feeding and how they are reacting to the weather and conditions of the lake. I suddenly become a different person calm in everything i do. I don't know why all i know is i just enjoy fishing and doing something i love so much helps to calm me and stop all the worries about my condition and tis seems to keep the attacks away.
I felt completely exhausted when i got home yesterday and ended up having a nice hot bowl of soup and went straight to bed early. So in reality i have had plenty of sleep so it doesn’t matter i have an early morning start to the weekend. I will be going over my mums later for Sunday dinner and Brian, my step father,will be cooking and i have say he is a brilliant cook and i can’t wait as i know its going to be delicious. Then its back here and time to clean the fishing tackle. I hate this time of year as its so wet all the time and you get coated in mud when you go fishing no matter how hard you try to avoid it you always get mud on all the equipment. So its clean , clean and more cleaning.
For now all i can do is sit and relax and watch some TV and hope the shooting pains in the back and neck will ease of by lunchtime, when its time to go out, as i don’t want the weather setting off an attack when on the way over to my mums house. The amount of times i get attacks when walking to and from a place is a joke. They always seem to be the worst attacks ands the most painful so you have to retreat back to the flat, where i feel most protected and safe, as i have oxygen and my medication around me.
Even though i have my injections with me when i go out anywhere i still always feel anxious in case anything happens. It’s embarrassing when you are screaming in pain and your face is swelling. There is nothing you can do about it except wait for the injection to work or the attack takes it course. People always think you are having a stroke or heart attack and try and help. Its nice to see people care but when your are in full attack all you want to do is be left alone.
