When i first started this blog i didn't have a clue what i would be writing about or how i would write it but it’s not until you look back you realise how easily it builds up. At least if i can make one person understand what this condition is like and that it actually exists then i have done what i set out to do. I have been very lucky the last few days with the change in weather being so drastic, i haven't had anywhere near the amount of attacks i normally get this time of year and am so convinced now the medication has started to work. When you talk about your condition with someone it some times gets annoying when they say they know what you are going through, they have suffered with migraines or headaches but in reality they haven’t a clue and can’t even imagine 10% of the amount of pain we have to put up with. The only way of describing the pain is it is the same level of pain you get before you die except in our case we have to live with it over and over again.
I am so thankful of the injection i have as they are the only thing that will actually stop one of these attacks otherwise each one can last between 1 and 2 hours depending on the strength of the attack. The are other days where you get smaller ones constantly through the day and can end up with anything between 8 and 15 attacks. There is always a shadow proceeding the bigger of the attacks, like a feeling of pressure constantly pushing on a nerve in the head causing you constant discomfort and pain. Then there is the neck, like someone has put grit between your joints as they grind away. A feeling of like there is a golf ball stuck in the bottom of you neck that keeps causing you pain. The shooting pains down your back each time you move and it is almost impossible to sit still for periods of time. The agony of actually walking as shooting pains from down your back and your legs each time you take a step and the feeling like your legs are suddenly made of lead.
So far i have been lucky with the medication as the first drug the specialist recommended seems to have taken affect. this gives me reassurance that the doctors know what they are talking about as the medication and treatment they have prescribed me is actually working. They have reduced the amount of attacks i get in a day but i still get the bigger attacks and when they do come they always seems as they are getting worst, if there was any possible way of being any worst than they are, and sometimes even the injections can’t stop the strongest ones.
Today is another wet and miserable day and i know its going to be a painful one as i have been getting strong shadows all morning. The shadow even woke me up this morning at around 5am but i have been able to keep the attacks away just by drinking coffee witch seems to calm the shadow. I am just hoping i can keep it from building for the rest of the day.
