Thank god i didn't have anymore big attacks last night. Normally i get between 4 and 8 attacks during a day but yesterday i had 4 massive attacks and one small one and then it disappeared. The shadow feeling eased of by late evening and no more attacks came or tried to build while i was sleeping. The attacks don’t half take your energy away from you, after you have had an attack you feel like you have been in a gym for about 4 or 5 hours dong non stop exercise, that's how painful the nerves become, you end up aching all over.
If you look closely at the photograph i took for my Facebook profile you can see the left hand side of the face in drooping permanently . Everyone who sees me like this always seems to ask the same questions..”have you had a stroke?”
Its not always as bad as you see in the picture as the face only droops when i get the bad attacks. Just lately though, the face has been keeping the droopy look even days after the attack so it is a bit worrying but i am assured it is just because of the nerve that it is doing this. Each time i get an attack or the nerve lights up and i am in agonizing pain, it seems like it is making the face worst. I do get days when i look in the mirror and notice that its not as bad as it looks but the cold seems to have a bad effect on it and it keeps the droopy look for longer than usual.
I didn’t manage a lay in this morning as the cold, once again, has woken me up. It hasn’t brought on a large attack yet, thankfully, but i am getting some strong shadows this morning so i am sure i will get an attack before the morning is out. One thing i have noticed about the cold is that it makes any pain you feel 10 x stronger than normal. When walking to the bathroom during the night i stubbed my toe on the corner of the door, not being awake properly and not watching where i was going, i ended up rolling around on the bed like i had broken my foot it felt that painful. It was only worst because i was very cold last night and had cold feet as well and it just seemed to amplify the pain.
Well it’s shopping day today so i am hoping to god that the attacks will stay away, or at least stay away long enough just for me to finish all the running around i have to do today. I hate it when i am like this as it makes me NOT want to go out anywhere, i normally hide away from everyone when i am like this, but today i have to make the effort if i keep giving in to the beast i will not get anywhere so it’s time to fight again!
