Awake at 3am yet again. Not with a full attack this time but the shadow feeling on the side of the head. A feeling of pressure pushing down on the side of your face. It sometimes gets so strong that it causes pain almost as bad as the attack. When it becomes this bad it is impossible to sleep. No matter how hard you try the head just keeps on sending shooting pains into the neck causing you to feel so uncomfortable no matter what position you lay in.
I am not supprised to get the shadow strong this morning as it is raining outside. It is raining so hard i thought i had left the tap on in the kitchen. This means there is a low pressure area of weather above us and this is what causes me to get the worst shadows. At least it isn’t more snow and freezing cold weather. This is a good sign as it means it is starting to warm up and it won’t be long before i will be able to go fishing again.
There is a fishing match today being held at Cefyn Mably lakes by the Llanrumny Angling club and i was booked to be fishing in it. With the weather still be almost freezing despite the rain washing away the last of the snow. There is just no way i would be able to fish it as i would end up having an attack every half hour. Although when i fish i take what is called a day bivi, a small tent like structure that i can hide away in when an attack comes to take my injection and let the attack ease. Then i can continue my fishing as soon as i start feeling better again. The trouble is when the weather is this bad combined with very low temperatures its just not worth taking the risk and putting myself through pain.
Only 2 weeks now to wait for my scan results and finally see if there is something they can do about the attacks. I have this feeling they will say there isn’t anything that can be done but they may be able to stop the swelling on the top of the head. It is possible if they do stop the swelling it may decrease the amount of attack i get and then again it could make it worst i just don’t know. It is horrible guessing what is wrong and not knowing if anything can be done. I will be so happy when i get the results whether good or bad.
