I haven’t updated my blog just lately as i have just been way to ill to do it. i couldn’t sit long enough at the computer before another attack would start and i couldn’t see the screen or even concentrate enough to write it. Even today i am still in agony and have an attack building as i am sitting writing this.
The last couple of days have been pure hell. I have never had so many attacks in such a short period. \it seems like as soon as one stops another is building in the background ready to pounce as soon as you get rid of the one before. The level of pain varies from attack to attack some are small but many of them are massive attacks and so painful not only does it weaken you but it also scares you half to death. I can only assume it is due to the weather change as no matter what i do to try an avoid the attacks from coming or aggravate my condition i just keep on getting attack after attack.
Not only am i being woken up at 2am or 3am with a big attack but the attacks keep on going through out the day and by the end i am so shattered i just tend to pass out on the bed. My face constantly feels sore and my neck is in bits. No matter what i do if i move a tiny bit i get shooting sharp pain from the point of movement up the spine or down it if the case may be. The pain over the top of my head is so sharp all the time its like someone is cutting through it and also trying to pry my eye out with something hot as i get a burning pain behind the eye socket.
I must be averaging over 10 attacks per day at the moment witch is the worst i have been for a long while. The swelling on my head is right up and i can now feel it all the way along the left side of my head and down the back into the neck. Something is seriously aggravating my condition and i cant for the life of me think what it could be. i am taking so much care of my health at the moment the only other step i can take is to move into the hospital itself. I can only think it is the stupid weather causing it and just can’t believe how much pain the human body can endure in a 24 hour period.
All i can do for now is keep warm as usual and pray to god i get a break from it all soon as it is really draining my energy fast. I find myself out of breath more and unable to walk as far as the supermarket with out stopping to take five. At my age that is absolutely ridiculous and no way i should suddenly feel so unfit. I know it will pass as soon as my head starts to ease again but how long its going to take before i get my break i just don’t know. lets hope the year will continue and its not going to be like this for the rest of 2013 as i don’t think i will be able to take it. I have got to get to grips with this condition and find a way of getting the attacks to reduce or even better go to sleep again. I have got to beat this thing as there is now way i will let it beat me!
