You know it feels like these early morning attacks have been going on for ever! I can’t remember the last time i had a break from them. I know i am now only getting 1 or 2 attacks during the day now and maybe 1 or 2 in the evenings but boy are they painful ones. They always seem to be the worst and each time you have an attack it always seems worst or stronger than the last one if that is at all possible. The level of pain has left me with a sore neck and the side of my cheek on the left feels like it is broken. The eye feels like someone has pushed a hot poker through it and then tried to pull it out again slowly and there feels like i have a ball in my neck.
Why i get a ball feeling in the neck i don’t know unless that's part of the cause of the problem. It actually feels like there is something there when you massage your neck with your fingers. It feels like a small ball about the size of a golf ball stuck in between the tendons and muscles. I think there is something swelling up in the neck causing pain some how and this is as a result of my head attack. It’s possible the nerve is causing something to swell or even the nerve itself, if they can actually swell i don’t know. Its all guess work at the moment.
I have my appointment with the specialist so will finally get some answers as to what is going on. I will get the results of my scans to see if there is actually anything they can do about my condition or what is causing it. I will finally find out if there is something there, causing the head to swell up all the time. If they tell me there is nothing there and its just the nerve that is damaged as suspected and the swelling is just from arthritis of the area where i had my head split open, then i will accept it and will have to sit down and plan how i am going to cope with this condition for the rest of my life.
But if they tell me there is something there, after all this time and pain that i have gone through i am not sure how i will cope until i get the answers. Well they have given me an early appointment on Monday 11th February at 09.30 so i will hopefully be the first seen. This gives us plenty of time to discuss my options and what's going to happen in the future. As long as i can continue my fishing around Wales i don’t mind!
