Another pain free day to chalk up. I managed to keep the attacks from building for most of the day. It wasn’t until the evening i started to get some strong shadows but managed to keep them from building into attacks by spending half an hour on the oxygen. This isn’t the first time i have used the oxygen as a preventative rather than using it to reduce the length of time the attack lasts. Not always are you able to use the oxygen before the attack as normally the attack happens so fast you don’t get a chance to. For some reason yesterday, as soon as i started to feel the pressure on the side of my head i jumped straight on the oxygen to see if it would work and it did.
I am still getting a lot of pain in my back and neck and am starting to wonder if i haven’t done some kind of damage whilst i have been getting my attacks. because the pain is so strong when you do get an attack you don't realise if you hurt yourself when you are moving around or massaging you head vigorously. With all the rolling around in pain it is easy to knock yourself or pull a muscle and not even realise you have done it. Also when the pain gets very strong there has been a couple of occasions i have actually passed out so i could have hit my head or shoulder quite easily and could also have done something to my neck with out noticing it. I don’t think i have and believe that all the pains and aches are from the attacks and the after effects of the attacks.
I am in a better mood today as yesterday we had some good news about my mother. She hasn’t had to go into hospital so quickly and doesn’t have to have an operation immediately as we thought so fingers crossed my mum improves and they get things sorted for her. She has been a lifeline for me over the last couple of years with my illness and i couldn’t have got through it with out her. The last thing i want is to see my mother go through pain like i have had to and am over the moon that she is better than they thought. I know eventually she will have to have an operation and treatment but at least its not a sudden rush and we can all come to terms with it as it happens and be there to support her when and if she needs it.
Another bit of good news was i have been accepted as a filed tester for Total Outdoors and their products. As i go around the lakes and rivers of wales fishing i will be able to test some new and exciting tackle and i get to write a report of what i think and how it performs. This is something else to keep my busy and take my mind of the constant attacks i get. As the spring begins i know i will start to see a reduction in the amount of attacks i get in a period so i will be able to get out a lot more and will be able to go fishing again as i am really missing it at the moment. We are currently watching the weather for a break and if it is warm enough we will be going pier fishing down at Penarth pier in Wales.
