I continued to have some small attacks yesterday during the day time, again when i was out shopping a full blown attack hit me, the beast doesn't care where you are! It was as if someone had walked up and punched me in the eye. The eye started streaming with water and a shooting pain straight through the head. I quickly took my injection to abort it but as with some of the attacks it took a little time to stop so i sat on the fence outside the shop rocking back and forth holding my sleeve against my left eye.
I lost count how many people actually came up to me and asked if was alright and if they could help. It was nice to see that they are so supportive when you are in trouble but at time like that all you want to do is be left alone. About 10 minuets passed and then the injection kicked in, it made me a little breathless but i was ok to jump on the bus and get my self home. times like that are scary and i hate being in that situation. I am ok when i go fishing however as it seems to keep me calm and if i do get an attack i can just hide in my little cave (an umbrella with sides you can pull down to hide away from others).
Well i was woken again this morning, this time at 1.30am, it gets earlier i am sure. I am so glad i decided to sleep yesterday afternoon early as i am off fishing today at the crack of dawn. I wasn't actually woken to an attack i just suddenly woke up, eyes wide open and not feeling tired, well maybe just a bit., but there is no sign of an attack. I don’t have any shadows building and no pain in the neck. It could be just the excitement of fishing kicking in but i think it also has some thing to do with the cold as the temperature dropped during the night very low and i could feel the cold on the top of my head. Yesterday when i got the attacks it was a chilly wind blowing in my face and i had forgotten to wear my hat. Well i wont be making that mistake today.
It looks like this will be the last fishing trip for coarse fishing this year as the cold weather is setting in and i wont be able to go out with my head. the last few fishing trips with my family have been god sent. They have helped me keep busy, keep my mind from worrying too much and helped me to stay calm whilst coming to terms with this illness, I know i have a journey to go on before they find the solution but i know they will soon and i will be able to get lots of fishing in next year. I will probably start the year earlier than normal. I made a decision the other day and make a go of this Tour of Fishing around Wales. I figure it would take me 3 – 5 years to be able to fish almost all the lakes and rivers in wales so if i work from here and slowly spread out, travelling further each time i will do it eventually and will record the whole thing online.
Hey! my parents and even behind me so i got no excuse. I refuse to let this illness stop me! I may even look out for a sponsor but i haven’t a clue where to start or who to speak to. I even wouldn’t mind doing this for charity or to raise awareness for the illness and to get people to recognise the support groups. All i know is i am definitely going to do it as its a sport i love doing, it seems to help me cope with things and gives me a goal. Well it is not long before i get kitted up and am off fishing so fingers and toes crossed for a nice days fishing and hope its a pain free one!
