I managed to get a great nights sleep last night and wasn’t woken once by any sign of pain or attacks. I have woken today, fully rested and pain free! It has been a while since i felt this pain free as i haven’t even got pain in my back as i normally have. There is no sign of a shadow so far and the weather today looks bright and clear so hopefully this pain free day will last.
There is so much i would love to do no i don’t have any pains but its a Sunday today and supposed to be a day of rest. I am going up my mothers for dinner so at least i will be getting out of the flat and won’t shut myself away as i normally do.
It is hard sometimes as all i can think about is the pain that i go through and what happens every time i have an attack. I don't want people seeing me like this! I suppose its just human nature to feel this way as we don't want to seem vulnerable in other peoples eyes. Any sign of weakness is normally taken advantage of by those who are scared of it the most, so i suppose this is the reasons why we try and hide away when we are feeling most vulnerable and weak.
Well i have to get on with fixing my computer as last night, whilst it was doing a Microsoft update, it decided to crash and wipe months of work from the memory. Lets just say i am not happy with it at the moment and am tempted to use a sledge hammer to fix it. So let me crack on and i may update the blog later just to see if the PF day continues..
