Yet another early wake up call form the beast! It was about 4.30am when i was woken suddenly, at first i didn’t know why i was awake as i was all in a daze and then the pain in my shoulder started to increase. Just after i felt the pain in my shoulder i then had a shooting pain appear from behind the eye. It was like someone was trying to poke my eye out. The pain stretched from behind the eye up over the top of the head. Along the scar on the top of the head and then down the back into the base of the neck. The pain was so strong to start with it was actually making me feel sick. I ran to the toilet but thankfully i wasn’t sick, all that happened was a couple of retches and then my eye just burst into a pouring stream of water. It was watering so badly it was like i was crying but only from the one eye. No matter how much i massaged my head i couldn’t get the pain to ease. I then ran into the front room and turned on the electric fire to try the heat trick and get the pain level to decrease. By this time i was in screaming agony and how i didn’t wake up the whole block i don’t know. It was too late to take my injection as i was already in a full blown attack. If i had taken the injection when i first felt it coming on i would have been able to abort the attack but as i was too worried about me being sick i totally forgot about taking it so i ended up having to ride out the attack witch lasted just over an hour, an hour of what i can only describe as the worst pain you could ever feel.
I sometimes wonder if the injections just delay the inevitable, each time you have an attack and take the injection to abort it just delays what i think is reaching the attack peak. I am sure you have the attacks until it gets to the most painful one that the body can take and that's when you get your rest period, after you have had the worst of the attacks. I would like to think i am wrong when it comes to this idea and that you shouldn’t have to go through so much pain but i have this feeling that all i am doing is just postponing the big attack. It doesn’t solve the problem all it does is hide it until a time where no matter what you do you can’t abort it and just have to let it run its course.
I am starting to believe that my attacks are due to a number of different things and not just one cause. The nerve being trapped in the neck is a trigger, my shoulder being over used and starts to ache is also another trigger that sets off the attacks. Also bright light shining in my left eye for too long can set of an attack and of course we have the cold and extreme weather conditions witch are the main culprit when it comes to setting of the big attacks. There may also be other triggers that i haven’t noticed yet but as i said the worst of all is the cold! This is the one thing that can cause me loads of attacks in a short period of time. So far my record stands at 23 attacks in one day, and most of them being big attacks. The worst thing is after the attacks and the amount of pain you get in your back when you are recovering. No matter what pain killers you take or what precautions you have in place you always end up suffering one way or the other.
Another cold day forecast so again i will have to wrap up warm to keep the beast from attacking me again. At least we don’t have snow this morning like the rest of the UK.I suppose that is one bonus living in Cardiff as we are close to the coast so we don’t seem to get snow as bad as the rest of the country. I couldn’t imagine how many attacks i would have to put up with if we were covered in a few inches of snow, i dread to think! Let’s hope and pray the weather improves soon. I have my doctors appointment tomorrow so i am going to ask if we can continue to increase my medication as i think i am starting to build an immunity to the level of drugs i am now taking for the condition. I am hoping with the increase i may end up having a pain free Christmas.
