I managed to stay pain free most of yesterday apart from when i popped out o do a bit of shopping and the cold wind wouldn’t stop blowing into my face and ended up causing me a small attack in the middle of the shop i went to. I don’t mind but its a little embarrassing having to pull your trouser leg up so you can take your injection to abort it, in front of all the other shoppers and store staff. Trouble is when you are out like that and you are away from home you don’t really have much choice when the attacks start.
The rest of the day continued to be pain free and as soon as i got home i put the heating on, as i was starting to get the shadows, and as soon as the flat and myself warmed up the feeling was gone. Now when the attacks appear like that and also disappear just as fast i don’t mind it so much as they don’t seem to reach the level of pain that they normally do. These type of attacks i get can normally be taken care of with the injection and if that don’t work then the oxygen would come into play, but when you are out and about you don’t get those options so you have to pray that it aborts at the first attempt otherwise you are in trouble. The last time i was caught out was when i was shopping at Tesco a couple of moths ago and i ended up having a full blown attack and ended up trapped in the disabled toilets unable to come out due to my face streaming with water and my eyes were swollen shut. By the time help had arrived it was already too late and the attack had taken its course. I remember being stuck in there for almost an hour before my neighbour came and saved me and drove me home in his car.
I wish i had the smaller attacks all the time as it wouldn’t be so bad only having to deal with them. I am dreading this time of year as its celebration time for Christmas with everyone visiting each other, and attending parties and functions. For me its a time to stay shut away from the crowds as i don’t like to be seen especially when my head is bad. Also i don’t drink as i found out years ago drink has a nasty affect on me and will end up with me curled in a corner in complete agony even if i only have the one alcoholic drink. It starts to get annoying when people keep asking, ”why aren’t you drinking?”, “What's wrong with your eye or face?”, “Headaches, we suffer them , we know how you feel!” When clearly none of them seem to understand what a CH sufferer has to go through on a day to day basis. For these reasons i would rather stay at home and celebrate the time of year on my own.
At the moment keeping warm seems to be working at keeping the worst of the attacks at bay and i am hoping that over the next couple of weeks i will be able to continue to get some pain free time to spend with my family, especially Christmas day as i want to spend it with my mother and enjoy my dinner with out feeling sick because of the pain all the time. I am hoping so much that the medication i am taking and the increase we are going through will soon start to take effect again like it did when i started to take them and begin to reduce the number of attacks i get. Well the weather forecast seems to say that it will warm up again and we wont have the freezing cold weather like the last 3 weeks so hopefully i wont have as many attacks set off by the cold. If i stay wrapped up also i should be able to keep the worst away but there is no telling how i will react and if the attacks will stay away for long. All i know is i am pain free at the moment and that’s all that matters.
