Well after a bit of a dodgy start this morning by being woken up again at 3am with my head and then a big attack 20 mins later, its has finally settled and i have a pain free head so far, no shadows , no little shooting pains. HURRAY!
Its times like this that i actually cant believe that i go through all that pain. When ever i get a few days pain free i start feeling positive and that i know eventually i will be able to control this demon, as long as i keep my appointments with the specialists and push the doctor for help with the pain control i should be able to live a normal life after all.
It is scary mind you, not knowing what is the exact cause of the pain and where they come from. Also the level of pain sometimes scares you into thinking you are going to have a heart attack or worst a stroke. Every time i go through it and get the big attacks i think to myself, “ will this be the last attack?, big enough to kill me?” I know it wont and that the only way is if something else was to happen like a stroke etc. but when you are in so much pain it is very hard to think like that.
Any way enough of the doom and gloom today as i am going to make the most of the pain free time, so i won’t be updating till late (i hope) as long as i stay pain free. Fingers crossed…. Time to catch up on what i have missed….
