The start of the day wasn’t that bad, a few attacks very early morning but seemed to settle down by 9am. I managed to get all my house work done and even decided to get out of the flat for a while. Walked up to see my mother today, was a nice walk, sun shining and a very light breeze, nothing out of the ordinary really. But when i decided it was time to leave and go home.. oh my god what a surprise! As i was half way between my flat and my mothers house the head started to play up. First the eye started to stream and then the pain began. The trouble was i had already had a few massive attacks early in the morning and had to take my injections. Normally if i have to use them i try and keep one for later in the day or towards the evening, but this time i didn’t.
A full blown attack had begun so i had to run as fast as i could back to the flat as i don’t like people seeing me when i am in so much pain and in tears, it was that bad. By the time i got to the flat i was already 10 minuets into the attack and the left eye had already closed, and the face started drooping and swelling. I then had to sit rubbing my head and massaging my neck for over another 30 minuets before it started to ease off. The worst thing is it didn't go completely, it left me with a very tender left hand side and every time i moved my neck or tried to do something the pain would return. As to how many attacks i have had so far today, well at least 10 so far and still more to come. As i am typing this the left hand side of my head is already building up and preparing itself for the next attack, and i have to go all night with no relief as i have used my quota of injections for the day. I have taken my tablets and some pain killers but nothing helps when its this bad, oh my god what am i supposed to do, how can i carry on like this, please god let them ease so i can at least get an hours sleep. I really cant wait to see the neurologist in October, i need something to help me when it gets this bad all the time, how can a human body endure so much pain surely its shouldn't be like this.
Anyway that's all i can manage for now as the pain is really starting to get to me, i promise i will bring my blog up to date tomorrow, lets hope its a better day!
