Fed up with repeating myself, pain and more pain all the time.

Once again i have been ignoring my updates on my blog. This isn't because i have suddenly become lazy or that i don't want to continue with the updates it just seemed lately i was just repeating myself over and over again after being woken consistently in the mornings by the beast and having to deal with the aftermath of pain and agony down my back and when i walk each day. I then have to worry about constant chest pains being caused by the hiatus hernia that i have and was told there is nothing they can do about it, i will just have to learn to live with the chest pains and chronic re-flux i now suffer from. Then when i try to go out to the shop i find i cant walk properly as the pain down both of my legs is so bad that i have to stop several times and sit down to take the weight of my legs. This has been getting gradually worst and some days are better than others. I have been referred to the specialists so am just waiting now on what they see in the test results and what help they can give me.

Eve since the cluster attacks became chronic back in 2009 and became unlivable by 2012 i have watched the left side of my body suddenly become problematic and strange things happening from my neck and down my back. This includes numbness and pain down the left arm and across the left chest scaring you into thinking you are about to have a heart attack. Shooting pains down my left leg in strange places and the left foot constantly tingling and going to sleep. Not to mention the amount of pain across my lower back i am getting and the pains being caused by the small lump on the left side of my spine. The sharp pains i get just under my left rear shoulder blade as though someone has stabbed you in the back and the sudden neck pains on both sides of my neck that constantly aggravate the CH condition and set off cluster attacks. These are the things i am now having to deal with on a daily basis and when you are not allowed to take very strong pain killers due to being addicted to them before, you can imagine i am in agony and a world of hell at the moment.

I am trying to get out as much as is humanly possible now things have become harder and i am finding that the distance i can now walk is a lot less than it used to be so i have to go carefully until i can find out what on earth is going on. When things started to go wrong with the left side of my body i had a feeling i would get problems later in life with that side of my body especially if the cluster attacks continued. I never for once thought it would all be starting this soon and getting bad so quickly. I was even planning on getting out and doing some winter fishing this year but even that has been put on hold until i can get some answers. One thing is for sure as soon as the weather gets better in the new year i will be making up for some lost time on our local lake as i have missed out on so much fishing this last year i am really going to make up for lost time. I don't care how much pain i am in i am making sure i spend most of my free time next year down by the lake side doing something i love to do and that's fishing. Hopefully getting out in the fresh air and the slight exercise will do me the world of good.

Well i have been and told the doctors about everything that is going on and my feelings and they have referred me to the specialists that i need to see but i have to be realistic its not going to happen over night and it will now probably be at the start of next year i will start getting the appointments through the door. All i can do for now is make sure i keep moving as much as i can so i don't stiffen up even if i cant walk for long at least i can still get about. Fingers crossed it wont be long before we get some answers and hopefully before my left side becomes worst than it already is.