Saturday 10 November 2012

The Beast is waiting to pounce!

I managed to stay attack free for a few hours yesterday but had a strong shadow all through the day. I had this horrible sick feeling for most of the morning that i can only think was caused by the amount of medication i am taking. No matter what i tried i couldn’t shift it, if i drank or ate anything then the feeling would become stronger but i wasn’t actually physically sick. I am not sure what is worst, actually being sick or feeling it constantly? Sometimes i wonder if just getting it over and done with is the best way.

martyn head badAnyway, it wasn’t until i decided to go shopping when the beast decided to catch up with me and the pain started to build in my head. I know it was due to the cold getting to it so i quickly turned and retreated back to my flat to get back into the warmth. As you can see i quickly took a picture with my mobile, just as the attack was beginning, and you can see where my face has quickly dropped and also started to swell.

As soon as i got back into the flat it was a case of, strip the jacket off as fast as is possible and take my injection, then switch the electric fire on and get my head close to it to get it warm as fast as is possible. This trick seems to help when the attack does reach its peak and instead of lasting 1 or 2 hours it helps to reduce the time to around half an hour or 45 minuets. Sometimes if you combine it with the oxygen it can also reduce it further to around 10 or 15 minuets but this doesn't always work.

Thankfully that was my last attack of the day and i didn't get anymore during the night either. Mind you i did have the heating on full blast all night, as i just wanted a good nights sleep, but doing that could become very expensive! I was then woken at 4.30am but i didn’t have a full attack i just seemed to have a strong shadow as if its just waiting in the back ground. Waiting for me to forget about it!….. and then it will attack. I have tried strong coffee as sometimes this helps to reduce the shadow feeling and i have made sure i have taken my medication but its having none of it. It’s just hanging there. Making itself known, every now and again it sends, what feels like, small electric shocks to different parts of the head along the left side. It also send shocks down the back in the spine and makes sitting very uncomfortable.

Well i am making sure i stay warm today so i don't get any big attacks that's for sure. If i can manage to stay relatively pain free today then i should be ok for tomorrows fishing trip. We have decided to get 1 or 2 more trips in before we hang up our tackle for the year as it will just be way too cold soon. The weather is being kind at the moment and is warming up slightly but this won’t last. At least this medication i am on is working as i am now having far less attacks than usual. I think i am lucky in that respect as i have read stories of other sufferers that have spent years and i do mean years, trying to find the right medication that works for them. I am just hoping my body doesn’t build up an immunity to the drug and i end up going down the same route. Ill have to cross that bridge if it happens.