Again i have been woken in the early hours due to agonising pain but thankfully it wasn’t from the beast this time but instead it was from the lump i have in my lower back on the left hand side. The lump is pressing on some nerves and is sending sharp stinging shooting pains right up the left side of my back under the left shoulder blade into the base of the neck. It’s this pain that can sometimes set off the attacks and Make every thing worst than it normally is. Yesterday i wasn’t so luck as i ended up waking up at 2am with an attack from the beast that i am sure was set off by my back pain. The attack lasted well over an hour and left me in agony for the entire day.
No matter what i did yesterday and what pain killers i took i just couldn’t get the back to stop hurting. When i walked or moved around it made everything 10 times worst and i was in screaming agony for most of the day and evening. It wasn’t until i decided to go to bed that the pain eventually started to ease off and i manage to fall asleep only to be woken again this morning at 3am. I am grateful that it wasn’t a full blown attack that has woken me but the pain in the back can be just as bad. The level of pain is so severe that i keep breaking out into cold sweats like someone has just turned on a tap and soaked my clothes.
At least i can get to see my GP on Tuesday and ask her advice what i can do and also chase up the physio therapists that were supposed to contact me after i left hospital but i haven’t heard anything yet and its been well over a month since i was last in hospital so i should have heard something by now surely. It is possible they are waiting until i have the endoscopy to see why my food and drink keeps trapping and making me feel uncomfortable and also bloating me up all the time. It seems to be taking ages to get my appointments after i have been referred. Both for a scan on my back to see what the lump is and also the endoscopy to see what is causing all the trouble.
I am still having problems with my bowels and constipation due to all the medication i am on and even though i am taking laxatives and stuff to ease the stomach i am still getting occasional stomach pain and cramps and a lot of wind building up. I personally don’t think it is the constipation causing all this as my bowels are opening and i believe it is down to the same thing that is causing every thing to trap when i swallow. It is all guesswork at the moment and we wont know for sure until i have these treatments and investigations. I just wish they would hurry up and not leave me in constant pain all the time. How someone can be in so much pain this day and age with all the modern medication they have is just beyond my comprehension and i pray that it will soon come to an end and i will get back some sort of quality of life even though i will still have to deal with the beast every day.
