Thursday 3rd October 2013
Yet again i have been battling with my bowels and end up full of trapped wind travelling around the internal organs causing agonising pain. No matter what i try to do to shift the wind it just wont go. I have been back to the doctors to complain 3 times now and 3 times i have been seen by a different doctor and each time they say it could be something different and each time they put me on these drinks that are meant to clear out the bowels and return you to normal function but all they seem to do is produce bad wind and cause me to go through a nightmare.
I am supposed to take between 1 and 2 drinks twice a day or when required with a maximum of 3 drinks per dosage. When i started on just one drink all it did was make the wind worst. Then i started to take 2 drinks and decided to stick at 2 drinks for a couple of days. After 3 days my bowels suddenly changed from being difficult to go to OH My God the world has just fallen out of my bottom! I have to take the drinks for 2 weeks to see if they will clear me out and help my bowels return to normal movements. Something tells me its not going to be that simple for some reason.
My head has also been playing up with attacks mainly in the early hours of the morning at 3am or 4am. I have been lucky the last couple of mornings as i have been able to get back to sleep after the attack comes. Normally when it wakes me up that is it i am up for the day but this time it have been forcing myself to go back to sleep and it has been working and I have been able to lay in until 8 am. The wind i am getting from the bowels that is trapping up in my chest and back is pushing on one of the nerves that is responsible for the attacks and i can feel it in my back just under my shoulder blade.
Each time i move i can feel the nerve moving and it keeps on aggravating my neck and head and threatening to set off a full blown attack. I am just praying this wind will be over soon as i don’t know how much more of this i can take. Ever since the Verapamil incident where i had an allergic reaction to something in the medication i have been going through hell withy my bowls and it has been going on now for well over 2 months.
My computer is offline at the moment due to me being late paying my bill. Its my own fault so i can’t moan at Virgin for it as it completely slipped my mind with every thing else that is going on and the problems i have been having with my health taking centre stage. So my latest update i am doing in 2 stages and will continue my update tomorrow with any changes, if there are any. Also if i have anymore attacks by the beast in the early hours.
Friday 4th October 2013
Yet again i have been woken by the Beast this morning and again it was a strong attack that lasted well over an hour even though i had taken my injection it didn’t seem to take effect. This has happened a few times and thankfully it is rare but always seems to happen when i have a massive attack. Again it has left my neck feeling like i have a ball stuck in the joint and very sore. I am also getting some strong sharp pains up and down the spine making it very uncomfortable and painful to do anything. I can’t even lay down and rest as it seems to male the back worst. I suppose it doesn’t help being bloated like a balloon yet again due to my bowels and stomach playing up all the time.
My bowels are finally opening and clearing as it is coming out like water at the moment so i have to make sure i drink plenty of fluids so i don't dehydrate and make myself ill. For some reason the wind wont stop building and my stomach won’t stop bubbling and growling at me. All this wind travelling around my insides can’t be good for me surely. I have tried everything possible to get rid of the wind but nothing seems to work. I just seem to wake up and then slowly fill with air until its time for bed again and then it must disperse a little during the night. The last time i spoke with the doctor at the start of the week he told me i had to do this for 2 weeks to make sure my bowels had cleared properly and then it should go back to normal. The drinks they give me makes the wind ten times worst so there is no way i can do it for a total of 2 weeks, its like living hell at the moment.
I am going to try a day with out taking any drinks to see what happens and if it improves the wind problem. If i can get rid of this wind and get it under control every thing else should fall into line. I just can’t believe i am going through all this. I think i am starting to go insane with all the problems i have been having this year. It seems like ever since i started the medication for my head i have been on a downhill ride. Every time i think i have something under control i end up with a new problem. All i want is it to stop so i can get on with things. At the moment i can’t even go out as i need to stay close to a toilet just in case i need to go.
Saturday 5th October 2013
Another early morning attack resulting in me tossing and turning in bed for 2 hours trying to get back to sleep. After the 2 hours was up i just gave up and went into the living room. Just as i was starting to relax, another attack from the Beast! It has left me with a bad neck and a really bad back this morning. So painful its making me cringe and bringing tears to the eyes each time i get a sharp stabbing feeling right at the bottom of the spine. It doesn’t help being full with wind and each time i eat or drink something i end up with really bad wind pains as it pushes up into the chest area. I have finally found something that actually breaks down the internal wind. Not just the wind trapped in the bowels but also the hard balls of wind that are travelling around the internal body giving my organs a massage as they go. It’s called DEFLATINE and its made by Rennie of all people.
I should have guessed as most of the medication they manufacture is all based around the bowels and bloating from food. They have always had something that helps with indigestion and wind but it never crossed my mind to see if they made something to help with the internal wind. Anyhow, It seems to do the trick and works by breaking down the hard bubbles so the body can pass them naturally helping to reduce the pain you get from the trapped wind. I have stopped taking the laxative drinks the doctors gave me as they produce even more wind and i now have the runs and now have to stay close to a toilet. This is the second day of having a bad stomach and i didn't;t realise the body could hold so much. I am hoping over the next few days my stomach and bowls will start to improve as i know i have definitely had a good clear out and my stool has now changed from the horrible black clay colour to the normal brown. This is definitely something i never thought i would ever write about.
Over the last few months my body has been through the grinder and down to hell and back. Different things going on an having to take lots of different tablets to deal with the symptoms i am starting to think the medication could also be messing up my stomach and bowels. I have an appointment with the doctor on Tuesday so i will ask her to decided what medication i have to take and what ones i don;t need any more. hopefully we will be able to cut down on the amount of tablets i eat during the day and maybe it will help my stomach and bowels recover.
Well it now the end of another week and still i am in the same situation as i was a few years ago. Not much improvement apart from the fact i no longer have to self medicate and chase drugs and pain killers all the time. At least i now know what is happening with these attacks and i now have the injections and support i need to hopefully put them to sleep. I am still waiting for my new appointment date with the specialist so that's something else i will have to chase up next week. It’s now coming up 2 years since my attacks switched from monthly to daily and i am still getting loads of attacks during the week. Ok they are not as many as i had last year and during the winter but i am now dreading the winter that is fast approaching and i am praying the specialist will be able to see me before the temperatures drop.
