Another early morning wake up call from the beast resulting in me not being able to move about for well over an hour and has now left me with even more pain and aches than i had before. No matter what i try to get comfortable its just impossible. As soon as you start feeling comfortable sat in one position then the aches and pains start and you end up having to shift position or move about until you can feel comfortable again. The last few months have been murder with the problem i have been getting with the bowels and stomach and just when you thought it was about to get better, as i woke up with out any wind or stomach pains, it all starts again! I now feel really sick for some reason so i am assuming its a stomach bug or maybe something i ate last night.
What ever it is that has made me feel sickie is now playing up making it horrible and every now and again i get this urge to rush into the toilet and pose over the loo waiting for the sick to build and come out but nothing shows its face. I have been feeling sick since late last night and also my sides seem very tender to touch. I haven’t got the wind as bad as i normally get but that's a good sign and i am hoping it is starting to get better. I just wish i could have one day with no problems and pains. Mind you if i did suddenly wake up feeling 100% i would start to worry as i am so used to the pains and wind and not feeling very well it would be a shock to my system.
Even though i was again woken at 3am by the beast i am happy to say i actually managed to get back to sleep after the attack had gone and managed to grab a couple of hours extra rest even though i was half awake already. I had planned to go fishing today and try and get a bit of winter fishing in before the weather becomes just too cold for me to go out in. Unfortunately the weather is against us at the moment and there are not many clear days ahead of us so i will just have to chance it when i can. Due to it going to rain heavily this afternoon and through the rest of the week and weekend i may try and get out on either Monday or a week Friday as they are the 2 clearest and warmest days we have forecast in the weeks ahead. I have been missing my fishing trips and getting out and about in the fresh air.
The winter seems to be closing in fast as the weather is constantly on the change and we are in for some very cold weather this year and into the early part of the new year. I think after having such a warm summer period we always end up having really bad cold spells so if it sticks to its normal behaviour we will be in for a very cold start of 2014. I am praying that the new year will hold new beginnings for me and my health and hope that i will eventually get all these problems under control. Its been a hard battle so far and even though i have felt like giving up 1000’s of times before i feel if i can continuing battling the beast i will eventually beat it or at least get it under my control and instead of it dictating the way i live my life just maybe i will be in the driving seat and can get on with the things i love and want to do.
