So much for pain free starts to the day as i was again woken up at 2am and again at 3 am by attacks from the Beast. The first one wasn’t so bad but the second one was really big and has left me very sore and in pain. Not only did it effect the left side of my face and head but also the left side of my body. Even now that the pain has eased and the injection has worked i am still getting sharp stabbing sensations in my back half way down behind my shoulder blade.
I have noticed it getting colder the last couple of mornings and again i had a cold band around the top of my head when the attack woke me up. I am sure it is the cold weather causing it to be bad once again. The first attack this morning was started by an ache in the top jaw. I actually dreamt i had a bad abscess or tooth ache and then when i woke up the pain started behind the eye and the attack had begun. The second attack i didn’t dream of anything i just woke up and then suddenly the attack started after i noticed the cold band around my head and a feeling of pressure.
Thank god i am due to see the specialist on the 20th of this month and hopefully get some more help and medication in order to try and get these attacks under control. Again i have been shut indoors all the time and haven’t been able to go out anywhere due to the attacks being so bad. It doesn’t help that i get problems when i am walking and pains in the chest as that seems to put me of going out as well as the attacks. I just wish i could get my life back in order and not be such a reclusive.
I am hoping that when i have seen the specialist and have updated him of what has been going on over the last year he will prescribe some new medication that may help to stop these attacks from appearing. Again it could take another couple of years to get the medication and the right combination of treatments to start working so i have to stay strong and positive. It’s so easy to feel bad all the time and low as the depression side of my illness has really been playing up lately and i find i start crying for no apparent reason and then just break down. I have been through a lot over the last few years and its starting to take its toll.
Normally i try and concentrate on something other than being ill all the time like my fishing but with all the bad weather and floods i haven’t been able to get out yet this year. For some reason the fishing seems to keep my mind calm and stops the attacks from building. OK it doesn’t stop all the attacks and is no way a treatment for my condition but it really helps when it comes to my mood and state of mind/ It also helps keep the depression from building up so i am hoping next month will be a bit different and we will be able to get out and do some fishing.
The weather is about to turn nasty next month as the temperature will drop and the freezing weather will start. I don’t know if we will get any snow this year but looking at all the rain and floods we have been having i have a feeling that when the cold snap starts we are in for a shock and i may not be doing any fishing until the end of March when the freezing weather has passed by. I really hope i am wrong and that we don’t get any snow but the chances of that are slim to none looking at the weather.
