Yet again i was woken this morning at 4 am by the beast and an attack that has left me feeling like the walking dead. Todays attack has left my neck feeling really painful and every time i move it its seems to be trying to set off another attack so i am trying to take it easy this morning. I am getting some really sharp pains on the left side of the neck and think it is a nerve that is trapped there causing me these pains. I normally end up with a sore neck but have never had these type of pains before so i know its something new. Maybe when i was rocking about and moving my neck when in agony, trying to deal with the attack, it is possible i have pulled a muscle or trapped a nerve and am now getting the pains and soreness after the attack has ease away. I am hoping this rectifies itself soon as it is very painful and annoying.
Again this morning when i woke i could feel a cold band around the top of my head so i am assuming it is the drop in temperature and the cold that has triggered my attacks again and that is he reason i have been so bad over the last few days. It didn’t help that i caught a nasty cold and actually thought i had the flu it was so bad. Even though i had had the flu injection a month earlier i still ended up suffering and having to take lots of cold and flu medication. I am also wondering whether the pain i used to do the flat had something to do with me feeling poorly last week. It didn't matter when we were painting the walls but when it came to do all the skirting boards, doors and door frames , the gloss paint seemed to be very powerful and the smell took 3 days before i could honestly say it had gone from the flat. I had to have the windows open all the time when painting as it kept making me feel sickie and made my eyes water every now and again.
I remember when i was younger and they were painting the walls at my mothers works and we were warned about the pain and breathing in the fumes as back in the day they used to used lead in the pain to make it last longer on the walls. i know this has since been banned for many years so i don’t think pain has the lead content any more but there is something else in the pain that seems to irritate my chest and eyes. My brother is completely allergic to certain paints especially gloss and if he breathes in the fumes he ends up really ill for ages, i wonder if its a family thing and we are all allergic to the fumes in some kind of way.
Well at least my flat is almost complete and all the hard work has been done. There is only the floor to go down in the hallway witch i shall do early this week and then its just the bedroom to be done in the new year when i buy a new bedroom set. Then in the new year the council will be coming to fit new bathroom and kitchen suites so the whole flat will look like new again. I really can’t wait for it to be completed as it will be like moving into a new flat. It has made such a difference so far with all the decorating we have done.
For the first time in ages i have been waking up in the mornings with a smile on my face despite having attacks as when i walk into my front room and look at all the nice decorating and furniture it makes me feel like its my home. It has taken 10 years to make my flat feel like home again, not that i didn’t want to do this a long time ago, i just wasn’t well enough to do it. If i started to decorate i would get half way through a job and then i would have an attack and that would be the end of it, i would just leave the job unfinished. Lets hope this is the beginning of a new chapter in my life and hopefully things will now start to improve. Let’s hope after the new year, when i finally get to see the specialist again and put onto another medication, i will finally start to get these attacks under control and learn to keep the beast asleep. Fingers crossed 2014 will be a brilliant year and a new start for me, they say life begins at 40, let’s see if they are right!
