Yet again i was woken this morning by the Beast and an attacks from hell. Thankfully it wasn’t early morning like normal and it wasn't until 7am when the attack struck so i managed to get plenty of sleep and rest before i was disturbed by the beast. The pain started behind the eye like normal and spread over the top of the head into the base of the neck. The left side of my head became swollen as it usually does and the pain was so bad it made my left eye close and swell. I started to break out into sweats like someone had turned on my water tap and it was just running off me soaking my t-shirt and shorts. The pain continued to spread down the back of the left side of my back under my shoulder blade and also from my neck down the front of my chest again on the left side toward the heart.
No matter how many attacks i get i still can’t get used to the level of pain it brings with it. You would have thought after suffering for so long with this condition you would get used to it by now but i don’t think i will ever get used to this kind of pain. Its just way too much to handle! Now the attack is over it has left me with a sore neck so every time i move my head i get sharp pain in the neck and an ache as bad as tooth ache. Also my back is in agony, all down the left side of my back under my shoulder blade feels like someone has drawn a line with a sharp blade down the back (that's exactly how it feels) like a sharp cutting pain half way down the left hand side of my back. My eye still feels a little sore and the head is still throbbing but this will go as the day goes on but the problems with the sore back and neck will usually last the entire day if not a couple of days or until the next attack.
The cold weather over the last few days seems to have been setting off my attacks and every time i have gone out into the cold wet weather i have ended up in agony so yet again i am shut away in my flat trying to stay away from the cold and rain and avoid getting any attacks. The trouble is i urn into a hermit when the weather is like this and tend not to go out anywhere even if i am invited. I prefer to stay at home where i know i have all my medication and oxygen at hand to help out and deal with an attack when is appears. I will be going out over Christmas but it will only be to my mothers house for dinner and to visit my parents and brother. The rest of the time i will be stuck indoors in the warm trying to stay pain free.
I am looking forwards to next year and a new fishing season as last year we went on lots of fishing trips and i found that my attacks seemed to stay away and the beast stayed asleep while i was out fishing so i will try and get in as many fishing trips in the next year as i possibly can, in between appointments and treatment. This next year we will be travelling a little further around Wales and the different lakes and fisheries that we have not yet fished. I am hoping to get up as far as north Wales and some of the different venues they have been advertising within Facebook. Some of these lakes and fisheries look really nice and i can’t wait to go visit them. So fingers crossed we should have a great new year as far as fishing goes and it will help me cope with all the attacks and pain. You never know the beast could end up going to sleep permanently with the help of the right medication and i could end up attack free, i won’t know if that's at all possible until i have had my next appointment with the neurologist so lets hope it will be soon.
