Yet again i was woke from my slumber at 2.0 this morning with an attack from the Beast that lasted well over an hour and left me aching and feeling rather strange I think its because i am so tired but keep getting sharp pain in my chest muscle on the right hand side, I know it cant be anything serious but is starting t become annoying and uncomfortable.
The head has left my back so painful its crazy each time i bend to do something i have to get up really slowly or i get sudden sharp pain and then it locks on me and when it locks n matter what you do you cant get free until the muscles around the back relax. Its now getting that bad that a simple rip to the shop becomes a huge expedition. At least we know have the date for the MRI Scan ad they are going to make sure there are people on standby in case i have an attack when in the unit. I can imagine ripping bits of to get out and escape and costing then 1000’s of £ just to replace. Not the sort of thing i need to happen, not that it would but you never know with my luck.
All i need to do now is wait for my next appointment with Dr Pickersgill and see what other drugs we can try to get tis condition under better control and try and keep the attack from attacking at all. So far only Pregbalilin and the injections work the last 2 medications gave me such bad side effect they almost killed me. I am dreading trying the next one but i have no choice but to try again and again and again until the right combination is found. I cant live my life having attack all the time feel so isolated its unreal i cant even think about Girlfriend with out getting my condition under control there is no one out there that would take someone like me on with all my troubles and illnesses all the time they would need their head tested that's why i a sometimes cold with women or push them away as its so embarrassing explaining the condition time and time again.
