Thankfully things have started looking up for me and the attacks i have been getting are no where near as bad as they have been. I have had a few days with no attacks at all and when they do come it is just one or two in a day witch are easy to manage with the injections i have. I was going to go back to the doctors to complain about my bowels and why they have been so bad for so long but then at the start of the week they started to work again and i have been feeling way better than i was even though i still have the odd bad day where the back and sides hurt but it seems at least they are starting to clear and get better so maybe what ever it was that was causing the trouble has now passed or cured itself. If they start getting bad again i will just go back to the doctor as i don’t want to go through all that again.
I will give it until the end of the week, so i will see how they are over the weekend, and if i am still getting any type of pain or aches and wind from the bowels then it will be back to the doctor once again and try and get something sorted. There is also a chance it could be what ever is causing food and liquid to get stuck when i eat. It seems to trap in the chest and then take forever to pass through to the gut. It feels like you are choking until it passes through and is not the most pleasurable experiences i can tell you. Dr Pickersgill, the specialist, had referred me for an endoscopy to see if they can spot what is causing it and if they see something they can then sort it out. At least it will put my mind at ease and it will be yet another thing ruled out.
The hospital has been amazing now the specialist is behind me. I have had all sorts of tests to see if they can find out what is going on and i haven’t had to wait as long as i did at the start. I am now back up hospital again on the 14th for the EEG to see if i still have a brain and if its working how it should. All i have to do now is wait for the appointment to come through for the camera down the throat and i will have had almost every test i can think off. The only test left to do is a colonoscopy to take a look at the bowels and stomach. This is something i should think about getting especially if i have any more problems with the bowel. It’s something i should talk to the doctor about and maybe book just to be on the safe side. I can at least say they have checked everything and will be able to look at all the results and see if they can put their finger on what is causing all these strange things to happen to me and maybe even what is actually causing the attacks even if they are incurable at least i would know what is the main cause and maybe even try and avoid setting them off all the time.
I have gone through so much since i actually found out what condition i was suffering and the effects it was having on my depression and bipolar condition. Feeling low all the time doesn’t help especially when you are ill and need to get out and exercise but don’t because you are feeling low. I have learnt sometimes you just have to force yourself no matter how bad or hard it feels. It’s only now that i am finding it harder and harder to walk to the shops or go out somewhere due to being out of breath or so unfit you just don’t have the strength to do anything. I force myself to do small jobs around the flat or go and do something for a friend just to stay fit and keep moving. Maybe now that i will have got all the hospital tests out of the way i will be able to get back to my fishing and get out in the fresh air, this will make me feel so much better and with a hot summer forecast i should be able to get out quite a bit this year.
