You would have thought as it was my birthday yesterday the head may have given me a break from the attacks and the pain all the time but sadly it wasn’t the case i was again woken up at 4.40 am this morning. At first i thought i had woken up naturally as i didn't have any sign of an attack building so i when into the living room and turned on the TV. It was at that point i cold feel the pressure behind the eye and over the top of the head and then the pain started just as quickly as i noticed the side effects ands i was instantly in agony/
It was at this point i had begun to cry wishing it was someone else having to go through the pain i had to endure and wished for it to stop but no matter how hard you wish no one seems that answer. I have been so bad at time i have actually wished for death to come and end all the agony but there is still part of me that believes even with death i am still going to suffer that attacks as i do. so there seems to be no answer to my predicament.
Just to be able to go a couple of days pain free would be a miracle but one that will never happen to me and am slowly getting to the point of no return, I no longer know what to do to end my suffering and i pray that some day thy will eventually find a cure.
