Yet again another early morning start but this time i wasn’t woken by an attack but by the shadows instead. I have a really strong feeling of pressure on the left side of the head behind the eye and over the top leading into the back of the head at the top of the neck. I haven’t had an attack yet but i know when i get these shadows i am sure to get one some time today. No matter how much i try i just can’t seem to get to sleep.
My mother is due into hospital today so that is also playing on my mind. The hospital has taken every precaution possible to make sure her operation goes well and according to plans. They are going to remove one of her kidneys as it is infected with cancer and then she will have to rest and recover from the operation. The body can run on one kidney with no problems apart from having to watch your diet and they have made sure that she will be as comfortable as possible but i just can’t help worrying.
I suppose its just a natural feeling as she is my mother and, god help me, i don’t want anything bad to happen to her. Its bad enough she has to go through this operation. I have tried to help as much as i can and keep her mind off the operation. We have been going fishing almost every other day last week just to help her relax and enjoy the sun. I know she has been preparing herself mentally for the last few months so it shouldn’t be such a shock to the system when she has the operation. We will just have to make sure she is able to rest as much as she needs to when she comes out of hospital and make sure her house is clean and no stress to upset her.
This has probably contributed to my sleep being so erratic as even though i know everything will be OK and they have taken every step to make sure she is comfortable and in the best hands i will still probably be worrying in the back of my mind, as i know i am. It’s crazy how different things effect the body. Stress, worry and also weather are 3 of the top main triggers for my condition and always seem to set off attacks. I am also beginning to think that lack of sleep and tiredness can also aggravate the condition and eventually set of attacks also.
Talking about weather we have been having a really mixed bag of it just lately. One day sun the next rain and then sun again. Its one of the strangest summers we have had but at least its warmer than the last 2 years as we didn't really have a summer period. This year is way better and the weather has been a lot nicer so i have had a lot less attacks compared to the last couple of years. The medication i am taking , Pregabilin, is also having an effect on me and seems to have reduced the number of attack i get but still hasn’t stopped the beast from appearing so i am hoping on my next visit to the specialist he will find a medication that i can take that will help put a stop to the beast once and for all.
Its such a shame that the Verapamil tablets just don’t seem to agree with me and i am either allergic to one of its ingredients or it is conflicting with one of the other medications i take. Its so upsetting that this happened as after the second week on the tablet it actually stopped the attacks from building and i was pain free for a while but as soon as i stopped taking them and my stomach returned to normal, after swelling up like a balloon, the attacks returned and i was back to the same old routine.
