At first my eyes opened and i was wide awake! Not even feeling slightly tired i sat up in bed and though here goes and waited but nothing! No aches and pains and no sign of the shadow, the pressure feeling i get on the left side of the head. This was strange. I didn’t want to go to the toilet and i couldn’t think why i would wake up so suddenly. I looked at the clock and it was 2.30am so i though i would just try to empty my bladder and then go back to sleep and see if that worked. I managed to get back to sleep after a short period of time tossing and turning but was then suddenly woken by the beast!
This time it was a raging attack that had me running back and forth from one room to the next not knowing what to do with myself. the pain was so bad all i wanted to do was take off my head. Just chop it off to end the agony. I could actually picture my head on a chopping block and someone decapitating me with a large axe or blade. To wish for something so crazy when in pain amazes me as you become so desperate you think of some crazy ideas. The pain becomes so bad and so strong you want to split your head open as if to release the pressure or let the daemon out. All you want to do is just rub it better but you can’t get to it. Luckily after 10 minuets of agony the injection kicks in and the attack stops just as sudden as it starts and you are pain free again although suffering from shortness of breath and a feeling like you are about to experience a heart attack due to the injection.
After this attack i was exhausted and just wanted to sleep so a lay back down on my bead and must have drifted back off to sleep. Now this is rare as normally after a big attack i am unable to go back to sleep even though and my energy is gone i always seem to get aggravation from the back and the neck causing me pain and stopping me from dropping off. It was good to get a bit of extra rest after an attack and i just hope it was a little longer than it was as suddenly i was again woken by yet another attack by the beast. When i looked at the clock it was 5am and that was it i just gave in to the beast and had to ride yet another attack.
3 Attacks before the day starts and that’s 1 with nothing except a wake up call and 2 bad ones. I was unable to take an injection for the 3rd one as i used one of my injections on the second attack but didn’t make a note of the time so i ended up just having to ride it out for well over an hour and i am talking pain like no other it was a full on attack, swollen eye sore neck and pain full back. The worst is the pain that goes over the head and behind your eye. What ever nerve it is its the worst one in the body to get a problem with. I am praying the specialist will be able to find something that will stop this from happening as these attack can become very scary and at time you think you really are going to die and instead of fearing it you start to welcome it and that's not a good way to be in. You know you are in serious pain for your mind to start to think this way.
