Again i have woken up at 4 am this morning but not from an attack but from the strong shadows and feeling of pressure. To be honest i am not surprised after spending the day fishing yesterday sat on a hard fishing box instead of my comfortable fishing chair. My back ended up in agony by the end of the day and after over heating and getting my arms sunburnt by the end of the evening my head was banging. It felt like someone was hitting it with a hammer and was throbbing from the pain. It wasn’t an attack but a normal headache from the sun so for the first time in ages i took a couple of normal pain killers to deal with the ache but it was the sleep that ended up calming it down.
Although i have strong shadows today i am surprised i am not in more pain. My back doesn’t feel that bad at the moment and the neck is behaving itself. However this could change at any moment and at the drop of a hat i could end up in agony all over not just on the head. I know its starting to cause problems with other nerves in the neck causing these pains as i can actually feel it when it happens. Like an electric shock down the nerve before any pain begins warning me or the agony i am about to endure.
It was strange fishing yesterday as i had the strong shadows for the entire day and was shocked i didn’t have any attack during the day due to the bright and hot sun. i had taken precautions and wore my fishing cap and sun glasses for the entire day to keep the sun off my head and out of my eyes. I had also taken my fishing brolly in case it really did get too much but i didn’t have to use it as there was some cloud cover at times and a haze that was stopping the worst of the sun from getting through. Even though i didn’t end up with sun stroke i found the day to be tough with the strong shadows effect my fishing and i just couldn’t seem to get my rhythm and ended up loosing quite a few fish and became extremely frustrated by the time to pack up.
I did enjoy the day and got plenty of fresh air that did help me to relax a little. Also spending time with my mother and step father Brian helps to break the monotony of being stuck indoors alone all the time scared to go anywhere in case of a big attack. i am connected to the net all the time and also with my mother on blackberry BBM service and pester her on that so i do stay in touch with people but its not the same as seeing them and getting out and about.
