WOW! What a head rush! I have just gone through an hour and fifteen minuets of pure agony like my eye was on fire and my brain was being scraped out with a spoon. My eye was watering so much it soaked my t-shirt. The pain was so severe all i could here was loud ringing in the ears and not even the sound of the TV was breaking through. Even taking my injection didn't really stop the attack from happening. When you only get smaller attacks for a while you can sometimes forget just how much pain these attacks can cause. I actually thought i was going to die as even my breathing was shallow everything seemed extremely strange all of a sudden.
This feeling only lasted for a second but when i was getting the pain and the feeling it seemed like a like time. The attack has built due to the hot weather we are getting and for some reason i keep over heating, breaking out in sweats and an attack starts to build but then stops. Each time it happened it was stronger and stronger until this last attack scared my half to death. I have had some attacks and even passed out when they are so strong but this was strange, a feeling i have never had before. Each time i get attacks they seemed to be getting stronger all the time and feel like they are building to an attack that i just wont be able to cope with. It is hard enough getting through the day with no pain and hoping an attack doesn’t appear. Worrying each time it happens, scared of the end results.
The sharp pain you get over the top of the head and into the eye. The pain then runs down behind the eye into the top of the jaw. Also from the eye it runs over the left side and into the neck at the back. It feels like the side of the head swells up and the neck suddenly develops a golf ball stuck in the joints. So painful that each time you move your neck you get shooting pains straight down the back of your spine. All you can do it massage your head in desperation and start smashing it against the floor or the sofa so you don’t actually break your head open. You scream and wriggle in agony and there is nothing anyone can do. The pain is so sever all you want to do is die and end the pain. It becomes so painful so quick, within seconds, and sometimes can take your breath away.
Suddenly it stops!! “BANG” nothing….The swelling remains for a while and the neck is very sore and tender but the sharp pain that feels like your brain is being ripped out suddenly stops. It comes as fast as it goes. I have actually watched my face in the mirror, when having an attack, and watched my left side face droop like i was having some kind of stroke. Watched my eye close up and sell as water poured from it and the face suddenly turn red on the left side. Even now the pain has gone there is still evidence of a problem as you look at the side of my face and the left side is still slightly dropped. I am still getting sharp pains up and down the spine and the neck still feels slightly swollen. I still have a feeling of pressure on the left side of the face and the eye still feels sore so i know i am in for more attacks tonight. They have just come out of nowhere and started due to the heat wave we are having. Even though i have tried to take it easy they have still appeared.
I am praying i get an appointment with the specialist soon so i think i will ring and leave a massage with his secretary and see if i can get to see him soon for extra help. These attacks are becoming stronger and stronger and so strong that i can’t deal with them. It now scares me to think the heat will bring on such violent attacks. God help me when winter re appears and i have to suffer the cold once again. If the attacks are this strong now what will they e like by next winter. i need to get control of them as quick as i can as this attack today has scared me and opened my eyes.
