I did manage to get through yesterday with out any attacks or sign of the beast. Not even shadows or swelling on my head came yesterday so i managed to get 2 days pain free and break from the attacks. Unfortunately this morning i was again woken by the beast at 5am wit another massive attack. I did well to get two days break with all this horrible weather over us at the moment. For the last couple of days all it has done is rain and of course the low pressure system that brings the rain is what seems to cause me problems with the head. If someone was to tell me the rain and cold weather systems would cause me massive attacks i would tell them they are insane. If i wasn’t experiencing it for my self and it was happening to someone else i would say to them that they are loosing their mind as the weather just can’t effect you like that, but it does.
Again this mornings attack had left me feeling really ill. My back is killing me and i have pains running up and down the spine. My neck feels like there is a ball stuck inside the joint again and my head is very tender. I have taken my medication but that doesn’t seem to do anything when the attacks come it is only the injection that can abort the attacks but i don’t want to waste what few injections i have left. I do use the oxygen when things do get really bad and if i have very strong shadows. It helps to half the time an attack will last for and helps to take the edge of the very bad ones but has of yet to actually abort an attack.
It doesn’t look like i am going fishing today as the rain looks like it is set in for the entire day. If it does clear up i may pop down the lake for a couple of hours this evening but if not it will just have to wait until the weekend. I do want to go fishing so i get out and get some fresh air as i am so fed up with being stuck in doors all the time shutting myself away due to fear of having an attack in public. Also shutting myself away as i am frightened of the attacks and what they could lead to. When having an attack you feel like you are about to die or have a stroke at least. It’s also horrible when people see you having an attack who don’t understand what is going on and keep on asking if you are OK and ring the ambulance when you don’t need one. No matter how many times you tell them you suffer from a condition and control it with injections all they see is you face drooped on the one side and your eye puffed and swollen and they are convinced you are having a stroke.
