I managed all day yesterday to go pain free and no sign of the beast. Same as the day before apart from the early morning wake up call i managed to stay attacks free during the day.i am hoping i get the same today and the beast stays asleep but that's hoping for too much i think. I can already feel the shadows and they are slowly becoming stronger and stronger. I was woken up by the shadows alone this morning and that’s not good as i know i tend to end up getting big attacks sometime during the day. It could be just the weather front over us at the moment bringing all this rain and colder weather with it. That would explain why the pressure i feel on the top of my head keeps coming and going. I get the feeling that an attack is about to build and then suddenly it disappears so i am hoping its the medication i am on that is causing that to happen. I have been on Pregabilin for some time now and i should be getting some sort of help from the medication by now. I know the attacks have halved in the amount i get but that could just be down to t6he seasons changing in temperature and as soon as winter is hear i will be in trouble again with up to 10 attacks per day.
The trouble with all this cold wet weather is it makes my back ache and hurt like nothing i have ever experienced. Every time i walk i get sharp pains either side of my spine in the lower back that spreads into my bum cheeks and i also get shooting pains up the spine to the base of the neck. When the wet weather comes it makes it a lot worst than it already is so i think its going to be another lazy day stuck indoors. It drives me almost insane having to put up with all these different aches and pains. If its not my head its my neck and if its not the neck its the back and if its not just the beck then its all of them together causing me to feel like i am falling apart at the seems. All i can do for now is try not to move around too much and rest the back as much as i can. Sitting at the desk typing on the computer can also cause the back to play up something rotten so as soon as i have updated all my web sites i think its going to be a day stuck in front of the TV.
I have just checked the weather forecast for the weekend and its not looking good. It looks like its going to rain every day until Monday. I was hoping that it would give us a little break on one of the days from Fridays onwards so i could get a couple of hours fishing in. It says that Friday will have showers in the morning and clear in the afternoon and evening so i could pop down the local lake then and the same for Saturday but we will just have to wait to see what its going to turn out like. It’s funny how fishing is the only activity i am able to do with out it causing me attacks. Why this is the case i just don’t know but am grateful i can still do something that i love so much. I am worried that things will become worst with my back making it very difficult for me to go fishing but i have seen people in wheel chairs, including my mother, who seem very happy when they are fishing and don't get many problems. So even if i do loose my mobility i will still be able to keep up the sport i love so much.
My web sites have started to become very popular over the last couple of weeks and are now over the 9000 visitors mark. It has also been reviewed in one of the big Carp fishing magazines witch is brilliant but i don’t know witch one it was yet. My mate is going to grab me a copy of the magazine so i have it for my collection and i can see what they wrote about my site. This has given me a new outlook on the future and hope that it is a step in the right direction especially when it comes to my health. I have to be grateful that my bi-polar hasn’t been playing up as bad as it used to and i don’t feel so depressed all the time and as long as i stay positive i should be able to tackle what ever life wants to throw at me but it is very hard sometimes. My mothers health was bad and looked like it was going to get worst at one point but thankfully she has pulled through and is on the mend. She is such a strong person i really look up to her as there is no way i could go through what she has gone through and still be positive. It is thanks to her i have managed to get as far as i have today. It was her idea to start a blog and get my feelings out instead of bottling it up all the time and thanks to her i fell in love with fishing all over again after taking a 10 to 12 year break.
Well i am hoping this weather will become a little bit better and give me a chance to get back out on the lake to see if i can catch a nice fish to go in my online scrap book. We have lots of different places we would like to visit over the course of the next few months and with the fishing club we intend on visiting loads of different venues over the next 5 years. The club is slowly growing and the group is becoming bigger each day. We currently have 6 main members of the team that will be fishing the different venues with loads of other people in cue to join in with the fun and join our team and come on the different trips and adventures we have planned. I am really happy with the fishing web site and over the moon it is turning out to be so popular. Lets hope this continues over the next couple of years.
