Although i was woken by the beast yesterday and had a few smaller attacks during the day i managed to get an early nights sleep and slept through till this morning. I didn’t get a wake up call and i feel so much better for it. I am still having problems with my back and with the IBS playing up causing me terrible wind. Yesterday as i was walking to the supermarket each step i took i passed wind so you can imagine. A little embarrassing when you don’t have control over it and if you try to force it to stay in you will end up in pain. There was a couple of time i left a nasty smell behind me in the isles when shopping watching couples looking at each other in disgust thinking it was one of them that had dropped their guts.
After all this time suffering pain from wind i have now found something that puts a stop to it straight away and that is liver salts. Andrews Liver Salts has been around for years and is used for constipation and stomach upset so why i didn’t think about it earlier i don’t know. When i mentioned it to my mother she had the exact same response as me. She couldn’t believe we didn’t think of it earlier but that’s how its goes sometimes. The simplest of solutions to solve a load of problems. It’s such a shame we can’t find a miracle cure for my head and back. I am now more convinced than ever that my back pains and problems are down to a trapped or damaged nerve as i have had some really strange things going on. My bum going completely dead so i can’t feel it. My legs loosing feeling and getting strong pins and needles when the feeling comes back. Problems with my walking and my legs feeling like lead also if i carry a bag of shopping in my hand then i get pulling in the back and the bum cheek.
I can’t wait for my blood test results as maybe they will find what is happening to me and why as time goes on i am getting worst and things seem to be increasing as more and more problems are starting to appear. I know there is something going on due to the problems and pains i get and i also know there is something going on inside me. Something that is effecting my bowls as these problems are just not normal. I know people can develop IBS as they get older but they usually have signs of problems during the years leading up to it. Mine seems to have come out of the blue.
Fingers crossed we get some answers soon as i am struggling with the Bi-Polar and the depression. My mood swings are starting the get severe and i am struggling to cope with the smallest of tasks. I can feel my self dropping rapidly and the grey mist is starting to descend. I can’t cope with an extreme low at the moment as my moods are too low as they are. I don’t want to be treated like a fruit cake like the last time my mood became this low. They ended up putting me in hospital for my own protection when all i needed was my medication and help to cope with the issues that were bringing me down. This time round it’s all down to medical issues and there is nothing I can do to change these things.
The only people that can help me are the specialists who know about these problems and getting to see them can take months and in some cases years. I am still struggling to get my next appointment with the head specialist from Neurology as they have cancelled the appointment i got last week after chasing them up for 4 days. Now i have to start chasing him again and try and explain how urgent it is i need to speak with him. As for the specialists who are supposed to be dealing with my back i am still awaiting my initial appointment. They sent me a letter a few months ago saying that i was on the waiting list and i had to ring them to confirm that i still wanted to be seen. i was then told that as soon as an appointment is available they would contact me by post but i have received nothing for months and it is now almost a year i have been waiting. What more can i do……?
