Tuesday, 17 September 2013

Feeling really unwell and unable to cope….

I have not been well at all for the last few days and now feel so weak its even hard to sit at the computer and type. My bowls have decided to play up something rotten and my stool has changed colour to a clay grey like tooth paste making it very difficult to push out. Any one with a dodgy stomach should stop reading now.

I have been constipated for well over a month and been really bad for the last 2 weeks. It wasn’t until Friday it all turned into a serious problem as i tried to go to the toilet on Friday evening but was finding it hard to push it out. I gritted my teeth and pushed as hard as i possibly could and suddenly exploded with a big ball and then a whoosh of water like having diarrhoea. It was every where in the toilet up the sides of the pan and all over my backside and legs. As i cleaned myself of and looked at the mess i noticed that my stool had turned a clay grey almost black with a oil slick like substance on the top of the water. Also i have been getting a constant wind build up and trapped wind travelling around the internal organs yet again causing me a lot of pain.

As to why this is happening to me we don;t know and the doctor is lost for words but is trying to get to the bottom of things. After having my bloods done she found out that my cholesterol levels are very high in a dangerous level so she has placed me on some tablets to get the cholesterol levels down as fast as we can. She was very concerned about heart problems within the family history and also the chest pains that i am getting. I have now been referred to the nurse for a chat about my diet and plans to get me eating a lot more healthily.

With regards to my bum going numb all the time and the problems i have walking and my legs going to sleep every now and again i have been referred for an MRI scan to find out what on earth is going on. She believes its down to arthritis or a problem with the nerve and spine.I personally think its got something to do with the nerve that is damaged in my head or trapped in the neck. My shoulder is still getting problems and my left arm is still getting pins and needles every now and again. I just wish that this would all stop and i start to feel well soon as i don;t know how much more of this i can take. all i want is to know what is causing it and be able to manage it so i have some sort of quality of life because at the moment i don;t have anything and all i am doing is living from day to day dealing with the pain and the problems wondering if something bad is going to happen to me and it becomes my last day.