Thankfully the beast is staying away at the moment and i am managing to get a few days where i am able to lay in until around 7 or 8 in the morning which is really good as normally i am up at the crack of dawn. Either i am woken by the beast in the early hours at about 3 am or i normally get up at 5 or 6 am and am unable to lay in due to restlessness. Being able to lay in those couple of extra hours does make all the difference especially to my strength as i feel i have a lot more strength and feel well rested. Unfortunately my bowels doesn’t agree with me on this and have decided to play up despite me feeling more rested and more energetic.
I keep getting sharp stabbing pains on either side that i can only assume is down to the wind building up in the body once again. It seems as soon as i wake up and settle the wind starts to build and i become uncomfortable very quickly. I am still taking the drinks in case it is due to the bowels being impacted and there is still a lot of stuff to come out and i will have to continue the drinks for a total of 2 weeks according to my doctor. I just wish it would sort itself out soon as it is one of the most aggravating and uncomfortable conditions i have ever experienced. My back is still getting pains up and down the spine and i also have aches on both sides of the spine just at the top of my bum cheeks.
My bum also keeps on going numb every now and again and the trouble i get when that happens is horrible. I am unable to feel my muscles working correctly and i am unable to push anything out when trying to go to the toilet as the muscles needed to push just don’t want to work. I think this is one of the reasons why my bowel problem hasn’t sorted itself out as i am unable to clear the bowels properly. Each time i try and go to the toilet i am left in pain. My back muscles won’t work so i have to try and use my side muscles to push down and push out what ever needs to come out except it doesn’t seem to work that well and i end up almost giving myself another hernia through all the straining and pushing.
I already have a hernia on the right hand side just above the testicle that plays up every now and again and leaves me feeling like someone has run up and kicked me in the groin. Having one hernia is bad enough so i couldn’t imagine having several as the pain would just be to much for anyone to bare. I am just hoping that my bowels will settle soon and this wind will seen be a thing of the past. I don’t mind the wind inside the bowls so much even though its embarrassing when walking or when out in public and the bowels decide to empty at that moment. It’s the wind outside the bowls that travels around the internal organs trapping in places causing extreme pain and agony. Even when i massage it to move the wind it only helps for short while as the wind always comes back and traps in the same places.
Well there’s sod all i can do about the wind at the moment and hope that the stabbing pains will stop soon. i will go and camp and the toilet again and see if i can push it out but its doubtful. I seem to have one good day and then one bad day and they keep taking it in turn. I hope i don’t have this all winter to deal with on top of my attacks and the beast, i don’t think i could cope with it all winter long. If my bowels are not settled or better by Friday (another week) then i am going back to the doctor to complain and see if something else can be done or needs to be done in order to get the wind and the bowels to start behaving itself.
