After a nice day fishing yesterday with family and friends i thought i would actually be tired enough to get a nice lay in but no chance. The beast decided to attack at 3 am this morning and would not leave till way gone 4. The pain was so strong i just didn’t know what to do. It has made my back pain worse and my head feels like it has been in a crusher and the neck is really sore. Not to mention my bowels, i feel bloated and about to go pop unless some wind releases soon.
I don't know why they just wont stop producing wind. As soon as i get rid off one lot more is there to replace it and why on earth does it trap around the organs. it wouldn’t be so bad but it hurts like hell with short stabbing pains and when you move they all go off at once. I move around as if i have suddenly turned to 80 years old and my movement is no more. When trying to go to the toilet its as though i have an heart attack each time as the constipation makes me strain so hard i think my head is about to explode and then to have nothing but wind come out just makes you want to scream.
I am starting to believe i have had a blockage in my colon or bowel for quite some time as it seems to be struggling to empty out what ever it is inside. With out going into too much detail i have seen easier toothpaste tubes. Anyhow, the attack seems to have left me with the shadow hanging over me once again and that horrible feeling of pressure on the left side of my head where i get the attacks all the time. It’s always something wrong with my left hand side due to my attacks. If my arm goes dead its the left one, If i have to trap a nerve in the shoulder its the left one. If i hurt my knee its the left one and so on i am starting to thing i should protect my left side a little better in future.
Well it looks like the winter is now drawing in closer and the weather change has started. All weekend and next week we are in for rain , rain and , yes you have guessed it! More rain. Normally when we get so much bad weather we get low pressure systems move over the country and for some reason it seems to trigger my attacks and make them a lot worst. I have been trying to get in touch with my consultant with no success. Just to get an appointment and another medication to help battle with the beast this winter as i don’t think i could get through another winter with out help. The injections work but for only a couple and not for the strongest of the attacks. I am in for a rough ride i believe.
